triumphgal

I feel as though I spouted from a navel gazing perspective the last two days. There was something that happened in Canada that is so far removed from our nation’s psyche that I couldn’t even speak to it. The mass shooting spree that occurred in Nova Scotia is so horrific to think about that I am not sure I can really process it. There is a part of me that can compartmentalize so well that even when I am moved to tears and mourn when these things happen in other countries it is just something that happens – out there. But this happened IN here, in a place in this country that is celebrated for family and music and fun and connection. My brain will not dwell too long on the fact that 23 people, 23 Canadians, at least 5 that are front line workers, 1 teenager, and all who have family and loved ones who will never be the same are gone. Left behind is a strip of a Province that will never feel completely safe again. I love our Prime Minister even more for insisting we never show the picture nor mention the name of the man who did this. And to have to deal with all of this without the healing power of togetherness, I feel much for all those on the far side of my country. I would send them love and prayers but I know nothing will ever truly take this away.

I have my own weird fallout from it as a few people I would consider friends have come out to me for the first time as conspiracy theorists and whom I consider the tinfoil hat people. Shocking revelations that their first response is don’t take more rights away. No more gun control. Some days I want to move to New Zealand….. for now I am activating the snooze for 30 days option and then will revisit whether I need that in my life at all.

I awoke to an email from the last client I billed last night to ask if that was seriously my rate. Seems I had not hit the shift key and decided he should pay 4200 for their tax returns. We had a good laugh and I am glad it was a friend of over 40 years. OMG I just did the math and that is a fact. I am blessed to still have good friends from that long ago.

Took a break during my day and went out to start my motorcycle for the first time since fall. I had been having battery problems when I put her away so I didn’t even leave her on a charger over the winter. I plugged in the charger overnight and today she fired up immediately. I spoke to a local bike shop about coming to get her and give her a tune-up, just hoping I can arrange a friend to bring her and save me $50. The shop is only a few blocks away so I could ride her there and walk home but I don’t even have a plate on her at the moment, only storage insurance.

I cooked a big ham and an apple crisp tonight. Didn’t even have any yet as I had other leftovers to get through but I am set for the rest of the week and will share with Ashlée tomorrow. Feels good to keep cooking for myself. So far I have only eaten takeout once and the last time I was at a friends for dinner was Friday March the 13th! I know that doesn’t seem like a big deal but I live alone and tend to work too much so this is a good habit for me. I also started a workout app today. We shall see how that goes, lol

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