I used my inhaler, took my vitamins, ate at semi regular intervals and got my job obligations done today. In between I obsessively checked my health Portal for results, okay it was really only about 5 times and then less that 22 hours since the test was the glorious news that I was negative. No Covid-19! I feel a bit beat down by some people in my life at the moment, unappreciated. The love and support upon sharing that I was getting testef was like a great big hug of ‘Fuck the rest of you” we love her. It must lift the soul up to feel that people care if you are well, if you are on this planet. And not for what I can do for them but just for who I am. I hope I continually grow towards being a person who leaves everyone in her life with the feeling that they are wanted and appreciated just for being them. You see, I have been having lung issues as I have spoken of previously, situational asthma, compounded by stress. As things are opening up again, including our office, and I was having a very struggling day to breathe, I felt it best to rule out the worst. Now I can concentrate on getting better from what it is, rather that what it could be.
It was nearly 4 hours later when I got a call from a sweet woman letting me know I was negative. It was great to thank an essential worker and hear her say this was the best part of her job, making these calls. Yesterday when I was there to be tested they asked me what my profession was and replying that I was a bookkeeper and payroll clerk for an accounting firm illicited an ‘oh, you are an essential worker too”. Very kind to give that acknowledgement. Of course I only risk my sanity, not my life.
The wind all day and into the night has been crazy strong. I spent the afternoon with my Marvel Hero blankie on my lap. I worry about my staycation spot. Rae-Anne popped over after dinner with some plants for my garden and we stayed far apart as she assisted me to make sure everything was tied down. It all looked good in the twilight of 10 pm., we shall see what the morrow brings. I’ve washed down an anti-anxiety pill with a lovely dram of Oban. Off to sleep I shall go, no alarm tomorrow as I have the day off with pay in lieu of my birthday off.
triumphgal 