so, I slept better with the machine but woke up with terrible foreboding, as if the string of loss was not over. I suspect it is really stress due to the fact I am about to make a huge life change, again, that will likely bring my income level down. That comes part and parcel with lowering stress on the job. I just have to budget and plan for the change. I am ultimately grateful for friends that I have made through work and that I now feel a part of their family. Shame they are planning to move to Vancouver Island in 2 years… oh, the place of my other life, I believe we will be connected for a long time.
I am comforted that this friend checks in on me, doesn’t let me be alone too long. Tonight was wino Wednesday with a delicious dinner and multiple crib games. It really was what I needed to escape for a bit.
I don’t have much to say today. I tend to introvert when I am processing and that is definitely what I am doing. I am draining my pool as the cover had blown off and it is slimey with pollen. As I need to move it to level anyway and I hadn’t put chemicals in yet I have multiple hoses in it aimed at garden beds and the maple tree so the water doesn’t go to waste. Gene plans to come over tomorrow to help set it up in a better spot and clean it.
I best get rest!!
triumphgal 