The little square on my paper calendar and the list on my phone was full with Dentist for cleaning, Tech meeting for upcoming show and strata council meeting. I brought Aiden with me to the tech meeting as I think he would be great as a theatre volunteer and it will be a good college résumé item as well. He had interesting perspectives of what was needed and the people there. I look forward to his help.
I fear for my friends relationship. Disintegration in action of anything is hard to watch and far harder to experience. I try to remember what I would have wanted as any of my three marriages broke down. I know with the first one it was what we now know was post-partum depression and all I wanted was someone to help me, to get me through it, to understand what I didn’t. To teach me to swim as I was drowning. I don’t know how to be the lifeguard but I know how to listen. I want to be the lifeline. I need them to be ok.
Last night’s full moon left me struggling to wake up after tossing and turning but a connection I’d made through Facebook dating left me with a little spring in my step after a messenger chat this morning. I forget it is activated and was surprised to get a message from a nephew of a friend. We had a great chat last night and this morning so when my day was over I reached out. It was funny as he requested we video message and then I basically listened to him for an hour and 10 minutes. He was super sweet but there were a few red flags for me. I will see what happens as he lives in an East Kootenay town but not here. I am also 9 years older and he has kids at home. So many hurdles, none insurmountable but…. I am grateful to him for stirring up the idea that I may want someone in my life. Maybe it doesn’t have to be a for always but a for fun for now. I do like me a tall drink of water. Maybe a toy boy could be good company in these interesting times.
triumphgal 