Today’s productivity was overshadowed by care for a client. I have known him for decades and twice in as many months he has said if his business stuff doesn’t get sorted out he will kill himself. I always respond and feel like I have talked him down but it is a big weight. I know that when I was closest to those feelings I could not speak the words. I hope that it is a flippant way of stating how much it is stressing him out. I am doing what I know how to do best and that is be there to listen, offer options and take the stress away by getting him caught up. I do have a pretty good sense of things and don’t feel it is an actual threat to his life, should that change, I will reach out to his wife and go from there. But for today, it haunts me.
I meant to get a lot done at the house today but I didn’t. I am strongly ok with that. Been binging ‘a million little things’. It has strong subject matter and I am liking the way it is handling the topics of depression and addiction and adults making mistakes. The plumber is coming in the morning so I should go to bed to get up early and clean or do it now which I definitely so not feel like.
triumphgal 