I am am just going to blog early tonight as I want to be relatively on the ball. I have once again spent my Saturday as I please, watching my shows, puzzling and doing chores in between. I woke up running work through my head and spent hours trying to relax and not feel guilty about anything on the to do list. Part of the problem is I feel and fight guilt at saying no to anything anyone asks of me if I have time available. Some would see puzzling all morning as a luxury but they don’t live in my brain. They don’t know that my balance and happiness and competency relies heavily on this down time. It is why I have taken a break from the renovation. I need to experience time when there is no pressure. I can tell when there is pressure as I want to drink and I have trouble with the inflammation in my voice box which feels like I can’t breath. Last night was the first time in my Dryish February that I wanted to drink, my mouth was actually watering but I made it through. I was especially assisted in that as Keri had donated to the Cancer society on my behalf. It gave me the strength to make it past last night. Now. To be clear, I drank this evening, but that was the plan all along and why I signed up for 21 days. I allowed myself Saturday nights to have a bevie. I know that if I am going to have any social time that is when it will be. And so it was, I drove to Rae-Anne’s and we walked down to the heid out for dinner. It is our spot. I had an expensive Halibut meal that did not disappoint and Siren Pinot noir which I enjoy. We had great conversation and good food. Along our walk home we stopped at a Cannabis Shop in the core of town. Now I will say, this is something I have never expected to do with Rae as I am the previously chronic smoker in the family and they.. well, not so much. The young man was helpful and I bought some gummies and he gave me some rolling papers that I actually went in for. I was looking for a good old fashioned metal pipe but he had none. We continued on our walk back to Rae’s and my car and she suggested we go to another spot in town which I had heard favourable reviews of . As it turns out they were right. Jimmy’s is the bomb. I did pick up a silicone pipe and some more gummies. I will give them both a try and see which I prefer. It still feels weird to go into a store and it cost 7.99 for 10 mg of gummies…. but really , comparatively it is about the same as one drink at the bar. I am trying the purchase from the first place and shall see what difference it makes to my evening. I am not sure it will be a fait report as I already had wine so we shall see. stand by 🙂
Oh and my cat has gone crazy. She plays like a kitten. Out of nowhere she run and skids across the floor, her favourite toy all morning was a paper clip. I guess she is happy..?
triumphgal 