04-04-21 One in Emelia
It was lovely to hear a young voice when I awoke. Emmy was dressed and ready to get on with the day at a reasonable time. We played with her new playdough Scentos and I was impressed that she thought to put three colours together to create rainbow items.
After a nice egg and hash brown brunch we all went outside so she could try her new bow and arrow set from her Dad. It was a little windy and cold but she had fun.
I didn’t get a picture but it came with a super cute quiver and all. She laughed as she tried to shoot my Jack hanging in the tree. After that we played her version of hopscotch, or follow the leader from paver to paver until she fell hard on the small rocks on one, digging into her knee. Then it was relax with an ice pack for a while.
Hot chocolate and Alvin & the Chipmunks helped immeasurably
Jake took her to see her cousins again and I tidied up and discovered she had made an impression on my new countertop. I can’t even get mad as I am pretty sure that is something I would have thought fun to do as a kid.
Once Jake returned we completed watching the first season of The Mist, only to discover it was the only season, lol. We enjoyed Tacos for two and good chats. It is nice to just spend time together. I had to let go of the stress of wondering if we were doing the right thing, having him here. It was essential in so many ways, changing his tires, seeing his young daughter, catching up with me, etc. I know that I have been pretty strict on towing the line and I am going to keep trying to do so but after over a year it was essential for me to just do family. I will be sad to see him leave tomorrow but we both need to get back to work.
All in all it has been a Happy Easter, but a different one than I used to seek. There was a time when I was a very strict born again Christian, very involved in church. I can’t say that I don’t believe all that anymore but I feel my beliefs have evolved, matured, come to a place I feel comfortable in. I am no longer.. less than, no longer feeling judged. I do believe in God, I do not believe in the fear based religiosity I was once subjected to. It is however, still odd to say Happy Easter in a chocolate bunny loving kind of way. I do want to say He is Risen, it still comes natural and I am good with that too. I love my friends and family no matter their beliefs (except the racist hate stuff) and trust they feel the same and so it is a Happy Easter.
triumphgal 