10-13-21 too many touch points
Today is most remembered in its moments. It would seem that I lost all solid grounding, all touch points in my world. I suppose part of it is that I have not been alone in a while. I have had company for 4 nights, first Emmy and then my friend, Those were both very good things but I am very much better at being alone. My Dr on Salt Spring, back 25 years ago, told me that I should probably choose not to have roommates. That rings true today. If I am not lost in love with someone, the minutia of daily life catches up with me. I am overwhelmed by you. If I am merely spending time, no matter how close we are, I will be overwhelmed by you in a different way. My own self is too straight up so I do work hard to control my impulses, my thoughts, to be a friendly host. What generally happens though is I eventually think you love me enough to hear whatever I have to say. I share my thoughts… sigh.
I started the day getting ready and putting on the necklace I was wearing on my motorcycle trip to learn more about my birth mom. When I got to Prince George, to the Friends (yes that is their last name), he ran on out to his shop and soldered it for me. Every time I wear it, I remember that and the memories made as they shared their memories of my mom and even introduced me to one of her best friends from high school. Feeling connected to my past I said goodbye to my friend as he headed home to Kaslo hoping to beat the snow, and headed to work.
I had one call after another, email and texts in between. And then I saw the message on Facebook that my Dad’s cousin, Marnie, had died.
It was seriously trippy as the Friends are Alice and Greg and their daughter is Marni
Dad’s cousin Marnie has a son, Greg
I am Marnée and my brother is Greg
It would seem that the only name every one could decide on the spelling of is Greg!!!
I was feeling all the feels, so I dug in my purse to find an ancient lipstick and decided to doll my self up for the afternoon.
A positive was that I was randomly invited out of no where to come play crib at the Campbells tomorrow night. I have Shield Maidens but hope Diane is feeling better and that it won’t be too late as I would enjoy a visit but can’t risk a cold being that I am going to be interacting with cast and crew Friday night for Tech night at the theatre.
triumphgal 