12-09-21 My cat gets me
Drag out of bed again morning, still managing every day to get on the treadmill though. I find when I am at my lowest it is the most important to stick to routine. I walk, I make my bed, I put on lipstick. Lipstick doesn’t run when you cry so no mascara but definitely lipstick. I wore my contacts and they are my past prescription so usable but not perfect. They took too long to get here to wait for replacements. I am still waiting to decide if I look older without my glasses.
I got my usual email to check in on my credit rating and the link lead me to a page that simply said “no healthy upstream” . Should I be worried? I know I am overextended right now as that is what I do when I am depressed. I bought a new vehicle, renovated, etc, etc, etc. But I am sure my upstream is fine, lol.
I left at a decent time tonight so I could make and have dinner before going to Shield Women class. I missed the last two weeks due to the burn on my arm and my mental health. I know if I don’t go I will not go.. and I really do enjoy it. When I got home my inflatables had taken a beating from the wind. I let Missy out and she seemed quite stressed by it. She wouldn’t leave them until I got them up and running again. I think she knows they make me happy and has an attachment. I also remembered that I had bought a special one on the Facebook Marketplace and set him up.
Dinner was pretty delicious, I just left out the chili pepper flakes.
MMA was worth going to tonight. The women there are really welcoming and Guru Joel is so kind and encouraging. I was having trouble swallowing all day and exerting myself really stressed my breathing. I still did as much as I could and seriously punched harder than I have, taking out my energy on the bag and my opponent. Knife work is always great, I have to work hard to coordinate my movements. I honestly just don’t like the frozen tag we play at the end. I know he wants us to end with fun but I do not find it fun. Maybe it will grow on me.
I stopped at the liquor store to pick up some vanilla crown and it came with a sweet bag. I think I know who I will gift that to. While sipping crown, I wrapped Christmas presents. I went all out last Christmas and this year kept it reasonable and personable as always. I am only gifting family this year and that is hard for me but it is the right thing to do.
Tomorrow night I will decorate my tree as I get the gift of Will and Emmy overnight Saturday!
triumphgal 