01-25-22 Will you miss me when I’m gone
First let me start by saying this is not a goodbye message, but just where my headspace is tonight. Not exactly a pity party but just a general feeling that there will be a sigh of relief when I stop having opinions in groups that I work with. It is literally my job, paid or not, to have opinions, but I realize why so many things don’t change because offering suggestions is opening yourself up to being criticized for being observant and speaking up. I think I’m at the point of just keeping my mouth shut, meeting expectations, and moving on. I had a very interesting conversation with a gentleman who had lost his wife not too long ago. We are of a similar generation and go into deep conversation about motivation and best place to spend one’s time. I observed that I only want to do that which makes me want to leave the house. No I don’t always feel great about getting up and heading to the office. I am Not the biggest fan of scooping the litter box and taking out the garbage but those both give me a sense of satisfaction when I’m done. My New Year’s intention was to Marie Kondo my life. Sure I need to thin out the stuff in my life but more than the things I need to apply that to where I expend energy. The timer is running down on my obligations. I shall continue to do what is expected of me and I shall try to smile while I do it.
triumphgal 