02-01-22 grief hangover
Today, for at least three quarters of it anyway, I felt like I had the worst hangover I’ve had in years. I woke sometime after 4 in the morning having struggled to get to sleep and my stomach was very upset. I didn’t get on the treadmill as usual but instead made poached eggs on toast and sat in the quiet eating. It is a meal made for visitors in my family. One that I enjoyed on my travels to Auntie Ollies and to her daughters and to my Moms. I sat just trying to get my head straight so I could get to work and do the payroll and other things that were so important today. The feeling lasted until mid afternoon before I was able to eat an apple for lunch. When I first got to work it took me several reads of two different email to understand entirely the message. It wasn’t until much later in the day when I was talking to my Ashlée that she pointed out I was probably dehydrated from the crying and I admit I didn’t drink my new habit of water before bed. I started drinking water while Duncan and I were building props and finishing the trim on the set and began to feel better. When we were done we went to The Heidout for a nice meal. I was proud of me as it is the first day of my Dry February and I was in a brew pub for dinner but I had a lovely Cobb salad and a Diet Pepsi with no feeling of missing out on anything. I think a beer or glass of wine with every meal out is an expensive habit as I always like the good ones. We recruited Steph, the director of the next show who also took the lighting workshop to come and help on Tech Saturday. It will be good to have another set of knowledgeable eyes there. I am looking forward to getting it all done and letting the world around us see the magic that has been made in these Pandemic times. I am really grateful to the guys for looking after themselves, for staying healthy.
I came home from dinner, shoveled my parking area and walk, and enjoyed a pomegranate brownie dessert that I brought home. I may have to walk extra tomorrow but it was deliciously worth it. I am feeling better, calm and sleepy; a good combination. It was definitely nice to sit and chat about MusicFest and other things than the play with Duncan. I miss my son and look forward to him coming to visit on the 11th. I hope he can make time to see the show.
triumphgal 