09-07-22 A better spirit
It really is amusing what a difference having a plan forming for my future makes for my mood. The trick is to get working towards the goal but not be rash. I am refraining from taking new clients although they are reaching out weekly now. The best I can offer is training and set up of files. I will get everything tidied up that I can, start working more from home so that I am used to working on my laptop and second screen and make big lists in triage order. The home mode is to get outside things done first and then start at one end and move to the other, sorting, purging, painting and finishing details I have ignored. All of this gives me minor anxiety and tons of hope for adventure and opportunity. I am good to go to other places in the world without being reliant on anyone but also glad I have various friends and family in several areas of England for a connection. I also need to be careful about my recent use of gummies for sleep assistance as cannabis is very illegal still there. That is a risk that I will not take. It’s a shame though.
The hardest decision I made today was to bow out of emcee duty for the Bud’s Bench placement and celebration on Saturday. I am committed to being there early to help set up and do the initial stage manager duties but will leave just after it gets rolling at 11 in the park to head to Auntie Ollie’s Celebration of Life in Kimberley. I was ignoring how much it would mean to be there and Ashlée reminded me last night. Family first. I will not regret missing the gig and I will hear the stories and see the pictures. Being with family and remembering Auntie is more important.
triumphgal 