01-29-23 A Day of self reflection
My neighbour and I went to the matinee of The Whale today. It is a stunning portrayal of so many deep subjects. I found myself completely engrossed in the intensely honest performances of a very tough subject. We are a result of the trauma that occurs in our lives. It touched me deeply and made me revisit some places I avoid. The damage caused by many organized religions in the name of God, the breakdown of relationships, the coping mechanisms we turn to.. the pain of parents divorcing, the strength of true bonds.. all heart wrenchingly touched on. I highly recommend this movie.
After a short mall shop, we returned home where I finished my laundry and began a new puzzle that Rae had given me.
It was then time to head to Key City to volunteer for my old friend Barb Phillip’s show Lost Marbles: Diary of a Breakdown. We knew each other at a very dramatic time of our lives in the early 90’s when we were both seekers at a Born Again Christian church. Our last children were born the same year and I did not remember the Psychosis, the mental break she suffered as I was dealing with my own struggles with depression and bullying in the name of God. Listening to her tonight touched my heart. She gives voice to the silence, the shame of mental illness. I am so glad I was there tonight, and am proud of us both for who we are and where we are in our lives now. I envy that she has had her husband Kevin by her side over 36 years now, an ever present strength for her.
I feel the need to feel the feels, to allow myself to know that the things that were stirred up today are well earned, will once again be put back in the box of memories and that they made me strong and caring. The sun will rise and fall again tomorrow. I will go on.
triumphgal 