01-31-23 So long January
Not the best sleep again last night, likely because today would be the last day of the month and I would need to ensure I didn’t miss any filings. It is funny how I have spreadsheets and lists, software that reminds me and yet I still have fear after all these years. A lot of the stress comes from the items that are not on the list, and the fact that I haven’t done groceries for fresh fruit, have skipped my Hello Fresh and know my system is suffering. Rae called me at one point to bemoan the fact that she had not only lost the lid to one of my special glass dishes at Christmas but now had managed to drop my queen sized inflatable mattress after it was left out in the cold and it broke. She wanted to just give me money and never borrow anything again. Of course, my philosophy is don’t lend something, including money, unless you are willing to not get it back. That did not come across in my gut or my response as I was in the middle of a tough payroll and I had wanted to sell the mattress to get the money to buy one that would fit the back of my car perfectly. I had to get up and go for a walk, clear my head and then call her back to explain. She, being the awesome human she is, immediately found the perfect fit for my car, at a great price and ordered it for me. I really do look forward to getting it! Win, win. Too bad it caused us both stress in the moment. Honestly, today was a day that left me thinking I would like to win the lottery after all and just let all the chips fall. I care too much about what I do, which makes me good at it, but also has me on a constant treadmill on a steep incline. January is the worst month of all the months and I am enjoying a lovely Islay scotch after puzzling for a bit and will tuck in for a hopefully good sleep before tackling February, the next most complicated month. Once the T4s are all out of the way, I will be able to breathe again.
I did stop at the Guedes house for dinner which was delicious and then stocked up on groceries before coming home. I shall eat much better this week, which will be even more important as I go into Dry February!
triumphgal 