triumphgal

03-28-23 Musings

March 28, 2023

How often do you say “no” to things that would interfere with your goals?

I have been ignoring the prompts for a topic on Jetpack but today’s spoke to me. I did not often enough say ‘no’. I followed the bouncing ball and wound my way through my life. I had dreams and goals and don’t get me wrong, I accomplished much, but as I cruise into the likely last third of it I have become much better at being focused on the prize. I have always wanted to travel; to see the grandness of nature and cultures all over this globe. Part of my weight loss goal was to get healthier and gain back the self esteem I was losing, but mostly it was to get the energy and health to feel confident to explore. I have worked over the last three years to establish myself in a career with independence, to become a paperless bookkeeper, to keep the clients who I respect (and they respect me) and let others move along. That has been the biggest change in my life, learning to say ‘no’ to that which does not move me forward and throw off that which holds me back.

I have had a good day, including another dental appointment. Dr, Mike fixed my food catcher and I took a funny pic to send to a friend who was messaging me while I was there.

Back at the office I wrapped up two files I need to get done, ran payroll and made my to-do list for the next few days. I called Mom to let her know it was well after 6 and I needed to come home and make dinner as the erratic eating times were giving me issues sleeping again. She didn’t answer but called me as I was about to sit and eat. It seems she is doing much better as she is back to her usual non-sharing of information. I wonder if I would have heard the good news of today if I hadn’t called and texted her. She had her biopsy on her Perotid Gland today and that is a very good thing. They won’t have results for 4 days, she says, but I am just very grateful it has been done. Fingers crossed that the mass is benign. It is the last on the laundry list of issues to be taken care of. Now she just has to get fully mobile on her own to be released.