04-22-23 happy birthday Ashlée
Today I was actually annoyed that I woke up at 6 when I have been waiting all week to sleep in. I made a coffee and watched the rest of The Mandalorian. I then made a plan to go take my friend for a ride in the jeep. So I showered and had a good lunch.
I was unloading my tires from the Willys intending to go wash it, have a visit with Mom and then go get Gordon when a woman stormed into my yard and commenced berating me for my fence panels that were leaned and braced. She, more than once threatened to turn them into firewood if I hadn’t built my fence by the end of the day. I tried to explain nicely that I couldn’t today but she kept yelling. She said she was tired of looking at my chicken coop (which I don’t have). I was so caught off guard I didn’t even bring myself to tell her not to talk to me like that. I just kept my voice calm and as she turned to leave after repeating her threat, I calmly told her to get over herself. I then proceeded to throw together my fence but as I suspected the tent trailer tongue was in the way and I couldn’t move it. I sat on my porch and cried. I then reached out to a friend outside of the city to see if her son was available to make some money. All my family were busy with other things. She promptly threw the hubby and kids in the truck and came to my rescue. After they left I put the fence together as best as I could with scraps and drywall screws lol. It’s not pretty but it’s up for now.
I wish I wasn’t triggered by anger. I can stand up for others no problem, but towards me… I go blank. And then I become very fragile. The problem is I think I reinforced to her that that is the way to get things done. She’d best not speak to me ever again as I won’t take it twice.
I finished and came in to find myself wanting to just curl up in a ball. Instead, I got changed and went to opening night at Encore. It is my daughter, Ashlée’s 36th birthday and she was there so I wanted to give her a hug. We had fun playing hoops and skeeball and Elk Hunter. I didn’t stay long as I didn’t want to imbibe much while both on antibiotics and driving the Willys. It was a beautiful evening and the new tires and suspension are fabulous. The only bad is that my left arm is aching again due to shoveling and building and playing and driving a strong arm steering vehicle.
triumphgal 