06-15-23 Struggling
I do not do well when I make mistakes. I made a big mistake on a huge union payroll. It was fixable but caused issues for the employer and the employees. I was not able to let go of my own anger at myself for being so overwhelmed with my life that I let a ball drop. It is my worst fear and I couldn’t let it go. I got the call that mom is getting out tomorrow and I was committed to going to my client’s funeral in Fernie tomorrow afternoon. The call to let my friend’s know I wouldn’t be there to support them and honour Bob was tough. Stacey was amazing as always and just straight up said, Bob is dead, your Mom is alive, she needs you. Can’t get much nicer than that. I was emotional when I got off the phone and still beating myself up about the error. I decided to call and see if I could get a nail appointment as some self care was needed. I was able to get in to see Minh in a couple hours. I was just pulling into the mall lot when my phone rang. It was the owner of the company I had made the mistake for. I couldn’t help breaking down as I once again apologized. He was so kind and forgiving. And we both agreed that we are not just work connected, but friends after all these years. He invited me to come to his wife, Sarah’s 40th birthday camp out for the Canada Day long weekend. It is a couple hours from here and there will be a pig roast and beverages, about 30 people or so and he has rented the entire campground. If I don’t find a serviced site I like, he will bring a generator and set me up. How could I say no?? What a great person to call friend, someone who just accepts me and wants me to be around. That is also the support and response i got from Monica as we had a quick visit in the hallway. She reminded me that this will pass, it is all temporary.
I felt much better after my manicure and went back to office to finish up a bit of work and then get busy doing my MusicFest schedules. It is a lot of work as I am setting up VollunteerLocal software for the first Ike but it promises to be easier next year. I will have to see how it is accepted and used by the crew. I actually have more people than ever but nearly half of them are new to our festival so that makes it more challenging to balance new and old. I finally left the office after 9 to come see how Missy is doing and she was hungry and affectionate. I remembered to bring home the jerry can I was given by an acquaintance who saw my jeep and said he had something in his barn for me. What a great gift!
triumphgal 