09-05-23 Anxiety 101
I heard from the lender that I was approved, tomorrow will be the initial call to go through all the details and docusign and then there will be the lawyer appointment to complete my mortgage. This makes me happy but I also am experiencing extreme anxiety. I don’t know why, can’t put a finger on it to work through it and make it go away…
And so I resort to my go to… I drink the anxiety away, or at least to a point of dropping into a deep sleep. There are two things very wrong with this though… I wake 5 hours later, dehydrated and stressing…. I gain weight. I have gained 10 pounds back, still down 35, which is great but I need to stop the gain.
I have also been having really weird dreams. I hope it is to do with the mortgage, not that I am picking up on something nefarious coming down the line.
Such is the life of the empath, I don’t know always if the feeling is mine or someone else’s. I do know there is someone in the building I work in that is having issues with their health and I have been trying to protect both of us from feeling what’s going on.
We shall see…
triumphgal 