05-15-24 A conflicted day
It was a busy day with volunteer and paid work. I finally decided that I should heat up my leftovers and have some dinner before it was time to head to Ashlée’s for our Mother’s Day evening. Just over an hour before, Rae called, distraught to let me know that a dear friend, someone who had even been in their wedding party, had committed suicide today. I think he was 40 or 41 with 4 young children. Fucking mental illness. He was a ray of sunshine whenever I saw him and I only think of him with a huge smile, but that is the way it goes. Well hidden…
I offered us to change the plans, but we decided to go ahead with the evening and bless Ash’s heart, I walked in and the first thing she di was stop what she was doing and ask if I needed a hug. I did. She held on until I let go. It was exactly what I needed.
Ash, Deanne and I drank wine and played games. Rae joined us for a short visit and then retired to her bed. Unfortunately, poor Roger is in Ontario. I am sure this is very hard on him as he was close to this friend for many years.
We did play a game that Mark sent me the prototype of, that he created. It was fun and easy to learn. I hope he markets it.
Rae got me a fun present when they were in the states on the weekend.
I had a nice deck visit over a beer with Tracey when I got back. Now I need to wind down and find space for sleep
triumphgal 