03-26-25 no more disrespect
Today was another cycle of pushing fingers into my eyelids and whispering fuck fuck fuck Fuckery fuck. I know everyone doesn’t see it about me, but I’m a person who wants to see the best outcome in spite of the assholes that are making things go sideways. If I know I can fix it then I need to stay with it. But today I learned from a conversation that I am completely disrespected. By the time I bill next week I will have put in over $1000 this month for an organization who won’t even acknowledge the $750 of that that will be written down because I made an agreement to work for $250 a month for them. They will not even post my logo as a sponsor on their event website and yet tonight have reached out for me to post other sponsors on their website for them. I will finish what I committed to, and then they will get a very long letter to describe the disrespect and misogyny, and basically cutting off their own noses to spite their faces. the hard part will be walking away after over five years of volunteering for that organization and helping it to be the success that it is.
A cool thing today happened when I went to download the data and delete my 23andMe account. It turns out that my brother‘s daughter, Maya had her results on there and enabled me to take screenshots of our background to see clearly what part of my DNA is from my mother versus my father. This was the main reason that I wanted to sign up in the first place. So basically all the 0% on Maya side is what comes from my mother. There may be some overlap on the other percentages with my father, but the important stuff is what specifically comes from my mom.
The good part of today was meeting Deb and Dave at Encore to watch Ryan McMahon play and just having a very good time. We talked about our upcoming cruise and making plans and laughed and joked back-and-forth with Ryan who I realize tonight I met 16 years ago so I have known him 16 years out of his 25 years celebration. We had a good chat stage to floor about it and I super appreciate him. It was a fun night which was something I really needed.
Oh and in spite of all the stress, I am 3 months smoke free! Yay me
triumphgal 