Today was a day of chores and relaxing, making food and visiting with family. I took soup for Donna & Hogie and met them at Mr.Mike’s for dinner with Jeanne & Barry, Danny & Terry. They are Mom’s first cousins and my closest family from that side here in the Kootenays. It was lovely to catch up and I had the Burger Month burger sans peppers and onions. It was delicious. From there it was off to the final game of the regular season for the Cranbrook Bucks, playing against the Prince George Spruce Kings. The Kings scored twice almost immediately and then we ultimately won in OT 3 on 3. Noah Quinn scored and the place erupted in glee. It was a great way to head into the playoffs with the first game to be next Friday night. We wait until Tuesday to find out against whom. I was very glad I decided to go to both dinner and the game. It was a bonus that Jeanne and Barry’s grandson Kai and his coach Dad, Adrian were honoured for winning the U13 championships.
I also made pretzel sticks which aren’t pretty but tasty.
It cracked me up when Sawyer, my 8 year old grandson came and said, “Nana, do you have your groupie pen?” Seemed he had opportunity to get an autograph from #17 Kungle. Of course I did 🙂 it also came in handy amusing the young bored child below us.
It was nice to wake up before my alarm and head in to the office feeling awake and ready to take on the day. I finished a big report job, assist a few clients with their files, responded to a CRA request from another and filed 4 personal tax returns. Then it was off to get Mom’s mail and go to visit her. I was happy to have had a call from Home Support today and learn what is likely to be possible. I found Mom in a good mood, very alert and with it and she said she hasn’t had pain and does recognize that her cognitive abilities are better as well. After the visit I came home and picked up Tracey to go to The second to last Bucks game. The play tonight and tomorrow against the Prince George Spruce Kings. It was a decent game although we lost 4-3. It was obvious our guys were not responding to the heavy handed ness of PG as we are second in the league and playoffs are coming. I hope they keep it together tomorrow night as well.
It has been crazy windy today, started with a few snowflakes even. Tonight the place is still shuddering a little. I am happy to be home in my warm jams, cuddled on the couch, watching Bel Air with the knowledge that I have zero obligations this weekend. Having a clear calendar is an unusual thing for me. I am open to options though, lol.
New things are happening at Western Financial Place. Seemed odd timing at the end of the season but I realized the arena turns into a stadium and it will be good timing after all
And the company. Worked, got picked up and went for lunch at Fire & Oak. Had my 6th of 7 to complete my card for burger month. It was a Pizza burger made on a grilled pita and was absolutely delicious. Stacey and I had a great catch up and are making a plan for me to get my Jeep from them and have it home to drive. Back at the office I made headway on getting tax returns done.
I left at a decent time and headed to visit Mom after having a very encouraging call from the Dr at the hospital. Dr Schroeder was very happy about her progression and feels once she is cleared by physio, she will be good to go home. I talked with Home Care to see what I have to do to get her the support she needs to check up on her and get her showered etc. It was a good news kind of day. Mom was happy as she had been visited by her pedicure lady which I had arranged to happen in hospital. We had a nice visit and then I picked up Rae-Anne and we headed to Kimberley to see my client, Grist & Mash Brewery and catch the live music which was the duo that played last night at Key City. It was packed so we walked over to Pedal & Tap for a delicious dinner before heading back to catch the last of their set and enjoyed sharing our beer flights and downloading our lives.
I saw on the socials that Jim Byrne is coming to play in Kimberley at the end of April so I immediately bought a ticket and am looking forward to seeing him. I was his ‘person’ last year at MusicFest and really enjoy the special relationship with him. Something to look forward to. The other thing in the works is that Shanneyganock is coming to Calgary at the beginning of May and I have asked Ashlée and her friend KC as well as Rae-Anne to join me in going. That would be a fun gals weekend. Hope they can all get it off and we can go.
I think it was actually 3 years yesterday that I began doing this every day. I only missed some time last July when things went sideways at MusicFest. I intend to tell all that and share the pics some day, but not tonight. Tonight I will be grateful that I have a story to look back on. I will some day read it and try not to correct spelling and grammar but see the ups and downs of a life well lived. I hope to see that I had more good days than bad and that I loved and was well loved in return. When my mind starts to go, I will have a treasure of words. Until then, I shall continue writing what comes to me, hope I clearly explain the important things and leave out those that will leave hurt in others.
This morning was slow to get rolling as I struggled after eating too late again last night to find an uninterrupted period of sleep. I took time to puzzle a bit and enjoy my coffee before dressing up and heading out. I was able to put on my dress that I wore for Jake’s wedding in 2016 and feel good in it. Win!
I just worked on many things until Rae-Anne texted me that it was time to go for food. She picked me up and we went to Don Cherry’s for their burger month offering. I skipped the jalapeños and it was the best burger patty so far. I loved it so much I even forgot to take a picture! We had a good visit, catching up on all the news of Encore. Much of the equipment has been recovered but the prime item that was special to them and necessary to run the bowling alley was the computer with the proprietary software that has not been recovered. That, the milkshake maker and some tools are still out there. I hope they get it back as they have to get rolling to open and make money.
I was at Key City for 4 pm and oversaw the guest musicians as our past president and ‘the guy’ for these things has let us know he has to take a leave from the Board to have Heart Bypass surgery. It is fixable but he will be out for a while. We are a board in transition so it is necessary to pick up the bits together.
The show was simply lovely. Emma Kade was the opener and I do love a singer-songwriter. She was chosen to open for Dean Brody when he was here and I can see why. She is also a gracious young lady who I hope goes far. Her family were all in attendance and it was a pleasure to watch the joy and nervousness of her Father.
Joel and Lauren Kamps, known as Flint & Feather were simply the most authentic, lovely people I have met in a long time. Their music, reminiscent of Simon and Garfunkel, was delightful and their banter and stories of their relationship were even more so. We had many good chats and I feel like I would enjoy being their friend if it weren’t for the fact they live in Calgary. I bought a set of earrings from their jewelry collection which is their other gig.
One of the joys of the evening was surprising Dave Prinn with his lifetime membership and a photo taken by Murray Hayward for his 7 years on the Board. I miss him.
Woke before 2 am and tossed for a couple hours, even walked around the house. My guts were churning and mind was busy. Even had a crazy dream about a friend when I got back to sleep finally. When my alarm finally went off, my back was aching. It has been a while since I bowled. I had to super focus to get the day’s work done, and even nearly missed doing a payroll. That speaks volumes to the state I am in as I do it weakly and somehow didn’t realize it was Tuesday payday. I did get it done in time when I glanced at my calendar before I left office. The terrible part of today was learning that Encore was entered after we all left last night an around $30K of tools including those of the subcontractors, a milk shake machine, and the computer that runs the fancy bowling system, were stolen. Just heartbreaking for everyone involved. Only recently it has been noted that some has been recovered. Thankfully, it seemed to almost be a theft of convenience as there was no malicious damage done. With the first batch of beer brewing, it could have been so much worse. It was just so terribly deflating for those involved and my heart hurt for the friend who was to have locked up. It was locked, I hope he can let it go. Thank God for insurance and if it puts opening further along, small measure. I went from the office to get my nails done with Minh’s brother Lee as the family is away on vacation. It was fun. We had so much great conversation and he worked it out of me that I was single, let me know he was and that he thought I was fun and sweet, didn’t believe I was about to be 60 and still hoped we could go out for a drink for our birthdays next month. I would like to believe it was actual flirting as he was so straight up but it always could have been for tips. I told him I would check in next month. It would be nice to have a date with a cute guy of similar interests. Guys my age around here are… old. We had a good laugh together discussing dating in Cranbrook. I told him I thought someone peed in the dating pool and loved the way he laughed.
Went to visit mom after and she was more like her pre-move self than ever, good energy, good colour and very clear minded. She noticed I was tired, remembered to ask me pertinent things and told me about the Dr coming to visit. I think the meds are starting to work.
It was 8 before I finished making dinner but it was important as I failed to eat at all today. That will not keep me physically or mentally happy.
Got a call from Mom’s Dr for the day today that she had had her MRI and has badly bulging discs at L4 and L5. So far no fracture but should it, she could become a paraplegic. At the moment she has refused surgery options. It is her body, her choice. We will continue to monitor. I got some important work done and then went to visit her for a couple hours. We played crib and she seemed better mood wise but still found crib very challenging. As it is her lifetime game, that is concerning. From there I went to Encore to help clean before the staff party. I am not going to lie, the lanes were covered in layers of sawdust and tape and glue. I made it my chore to remove any stuck on bits and clean the rails. Everyone who could arrived from Arby’s after they closed early and we had a fun bowling party with good food and Phillips beer as the brewery is still processing its first batch. It was good for moral to hang out with coworkers and I had a lot of fun bowling with Fred and Nikki. I have not spent as much time with him and it was relaxed and a good time.
It was lovely to welcome in Spring today, we are in need of more of the sunny days we have had recently.
How does one process new information about a relative they adored over 25 years after they died? The last couple months have brought out a lot of information to process as Mom seems to have lost her filter. Today I messaged with a cousin and something came up that I had not heard before. We had a long talk about generational trauma and there was so much information that it was almost too much to process. I had a small conversation with Mom about it when I visited with her for a couple hours. She confirmed and told her own experience. I knew we had big issues in our family that were all swept under the carpet. The outside world thought we were such a perfect family but the generation of me and my cousins have been dealing with the fallout our whole lives and we are all virtually strangers because of it. We could have been so much support to each other if we had only known it was safe to talk about it. The main thing I remember is being taught not to talk about things. It is likely one of the reasons I have trouble breathing and lose my voice with stress. It is also really important if I feel heard when I speak my truth. I know that is a basic need for anyone but it comes from a deeper place in this case.
Rae-Anne visited with mom this morning and the Dr was there to let us know that she is being treated as if she has Grave’s disease. When I was there I really noticed the mental deficiencies getting worse. I have been told to find her a Dr as she needs to been seen twice a week ongoing. We are still waiting for the MRI.
I came home and made dinner and am trying to find peace as all that is processing through my psyche right now. Don’t want to undo all those years of therapy!
Last night after I finished blogging I saw there was a voicemail on my phone and it turned out that the call from a person I didn’t know just as the game was starting was from the woman in the bed next to me telling me my Mom needed me to call. As it was now well after midnight, I called the nursing station and they brought her the cordless phone. She said she had had an anxiety attack and needed to talk to me and could I come in the morning. I reminded her that I had the funeral of my friend Peter in the morning and would come afterwards and that she needed to call from her phone so I would know to answer. I talked it out with a friend who was still up and finally managed to get to sleep around 2 am. The alarm was not my friend when it went off to start the day. I texted Donna and she got herself ready and hurried there to visit. Mom was very glad to see her. I went to the service which is in the temporary location of the Martial Arts building as the church is under renovation. I was not at all prepared for the length and liturgy of an Orthodox service and was stunned to walk in to see the open casket. I was just early enough to find a spot to sit and looked over to see Elias, Peter’s son sitting alone. He turns 5 next week and my Nana vibes kicked in. He found everything too loud and emotional, the incense was overpowering in the small space and he was hungry. I tended to him over the next two hours, taking him for walks a couple times and having good little conversations. He seemed relatively uninterested that his Dad is gone, said he was a little mean and that he was mostly upset as his mom is angry and cries. I am sure in the end Peter struggled to be kind as the Cancer took it’s toll. Poor little guy. Fortunately his little brother Zeus slept through most of it. I found the service to be overwhelming and mostly just wanted to escape. When I went through the receiving line dear Rasel, the young grieving widow held on to our hug like she didn’t know how to let go. How sad for her to be so far away from her family (I think in the Philippines) and alone with two wee sons.
From there I went to see Mom for a couple hours and then did some shopping to pick up things I needed. I noticed people looking at me sadly and realized I was moving like a zombie through my tasks. Mom is definitely struggling mentally and as this is day 9 I am beginning to as well. She refused Medicine for her Thyroid in the night because she hadn’t heard of it before. I talked with her about accepting all the meds and help to get her on the road to recovery and then we went through her phone messages and had her call a few people to catch them up. I had to keep assisting her to get the details right. Still no MRI, so still not walking.
I came home to make food and found that one of the meals I had received was Greek-Style shrimp. That seemed perfect to remember the man who ran the Greek restaurant here and was a good client and friend to me the last 5 or 6 years.
Another sad part of the day was finding that Matthew the Magnificent is dead. I am convinced it is due to Missy drinking out of the fish bowl, a bad recent habit that I have not been able to solve. For now I will not replace him.
RIP Matthew
I have been resting on the couch between chores and ordered a desk on sale from Wayfair which will allow me to set up a proper workspace so I can work from home when needed.
I am exhausted. Tomorrow I have booked absolutely nothing and told Mom she can call me but that I may not be up. Rae-Anne has offered to go see her and I think that would be best.
I tossed and turned most of the night and finally got up at 6:15. I was just about ready to leave for work when I got a text. It was from Danika’s number and I figured Gwen had gotten hold of her phone so I replied and then FaceTimed with her. Gwen was so smiley and happy that it was me. What a great little bonus granddaughter that she made my day.
I managed to get a great deal accomplished at the office and then left early to go to Mom’s apartment to clean out the fridge and get her mail. Next I went to pick up my two new pair of readers at the optometrist, one of which, the ones I need to read in bed, gave me double vision. They said they would try to find a solution and call me. From there I headed to the hospital to visit Mom who I found sitting on the side of her bed looking unhappy. Seems she was waiting for the nurse, thinking she needed to be cleaned up, but he already had taken care of her. She has been unable to remember some simple things and it is unnerving. Still waiting on more test results unfortunately. We did play a game of crib and it was pretty close but I won. She would play an 8 but say 7, It was awkward.
I came home and cut up all the apples she had to take them as my appy to poker night. It was a good night for me and at the break at 10 I had big stack, the biggest they have seen they said, although I am not sure of that. Unfortunately by 11:30 I was fading fast and went all in to go home. I was the 4th remaining which is the best I have done and I got so many bounty chips from taking others out that when I cashed them in it covered what I had paid to play so a great outcome all round. The cards had been crap after the break and even though I folded often, the blinds ate up my stack quickly. I did stay in longer than several people who are at the top of the league so that was awesome.
Earlier today when I came home I found some friends hanging in our park.
I am extremely tired and have a funeral tomorrow, so off to bed I go.
This morning I received the news from a friend that my friend had died on Monday. Peter began as a client and over time we became friends and it set me to weeping as when I saw him last, near the end of January, I knew it would likely be the last time. He had shared that he quit smoking 27 years ago but had lung cancer that was very far advanced by the time they found it. My heart hurts for his young wife and son and his older sons from his previous relationship. He was a fixture here in town and will be missed. But, the day had to go on, so I went to the office, stuffed back the feels and got things done. We celebrated dear Nikki who turns 30 next week but many are taking spring break off with their kids, so today was the day. She is such a breath of fresh air in my life and it was easy to celebrate her. She made me laugh when she put on her rain cap they gave her, to protect her Hairdo.
I got all the payroll and must do items off my list and headed up early to see mom as I had missed seeing her yesterday. I requested to see the Dr in charge of her right now for an update and am very impressed with Dr. Jensen. She told us that she felt too many things were left hanging and that she had reached out to specialists to ensure she knew a care plan once results come in as the weekend is near. Unfortunately they only do one inpatient MRI per day and that is the test she needs the most to see what is happening with her spine. She is in queue. They found lumps on her Thyroid and are waiting for a specific test result to see if it is Grave’s disease and then can make a plan for treatment. I was glad to hear they also did a cognitive test and do see deficiencies which I have been trying to point out without being unkind. While I was there Bill showed up with Lukas for a visit and that made Mom happy. I really appreciate what Bill and Deanne are doing to bring the boys as they brought Sawyer and Will yesterday. Cousin Donna has been coming regularly and it is keeping Mom’s spirits up. Bless her. While I was there I received a message from a client that they were to have a BC Liquour Control audit tomorrow on their Brewery and needed reports on what they had spent on external liquor since 01-01-22 to date. I left and went back to the office to finish entering all their info and finished around 8:30. They are very grateful. Good thing I love most of my clients and am willing to go out of my way for them. I mean, I charge them, but still, most firms won’t even answer a call for something like that. Once I was done, I reached out to Rae-Anne while I was warming up my car and she was at Fire Hall for something to eat so I met her there and had a strange but interesting visit with the people she was sitting with. Rob was generous and friendly but very… ‘old school’ in many ways, like how he spoke to the server like she was his personal ‘gal’. Some days hold so much ‘stuff’ I wonder how I get through them, but in many ways, it is just one foot in front of the other, let the tears fall if they need to and press on. Tomorrow will bring it’s own joys and sorrows. It was also my friend from the ABC groups 70th birthday and it blows me away that I have known him a decade, meaning he did the Inca Trail at my age. Life goals right there.
Lukas loved the wheelchair and wished he could get hurt just enough to need one for a short time. I warned him to be careful what he wishes for.
After all our good conversation last night, Cassidy and I managed to get up and on our way at a decent time. I decided to take my friend’s comment about it being me, then family, then work for priorities to heart and went for a tour of Encore with Rae-Anne, Greg and Cass before we met Bill and Deanne, followed by Ashlée, at Denny’s before G&C headed off. I do wish we all lived closer but it was a good visit. I left for work after giving puzzles to Cass to give to my friend Barb on Salt Spring. I had a mini melt down at work when I mentioned to a worker that they were especially loud today and I was really having trouble concentrating and they got all offended. I spoke to my main client in that space and said I am going to arrange working from home and possibly only going in on Tuesday’s and Thursdays. I have to find a good desk for home to set up and make that happen. He said he would definitely work with that and completely understood. I left mid afternoon to go to a client and raced away to drive Jesse to cover my shifts and then returned to finally finish their file at 9 or so. Thankfully Darcy is awesome to work for and is glad she has her Marnée. I didn’t make it to see Mom today but know she had lots of visitors so I will check in with her tomorrow.
Today was the day that the video was released for the Cox and McRae song that I love the most off their album and was able to contribute to. Please enjoy!! It is a wonderful tribute and I am happy my friend Matt Steffich was able to be included.
Today was simply lovely. I got up and ready this morning and then woke up Cassidy to get ready so we could head to Bill and Deanne’s. After a delicious breakfast and great visit, I headed off to work. It was probably 11 before I got really focused but it was worth it and I powered through a lot before heading off to a client for 3 hours. Next was meeting everyone at Arby’s for a meal and pictures and another great visit. From there the grownups went to the Fire Hall for beverages and some fun sharing of old pics and stories. I came home and Cassidy got her truck, a Dodge Ram, love that girl, and came over. We sat and drank a little wine and had a very good visit. She learned a few historical items that she didn’t know about her Auntie and I caught up on all the siblings info.
Mom is doing the same, awaiting her MRI and not being released for a while. I will pop up and see her tomorrow evening now that I have managed to get my shift covered at Arby’s.
Gene also finally gave me the pics from my Strike at Encore
Today was a lot of catch up, 136 email not counting spam to peruse and a bunch of work to get done before heading off to the client I pushed off on Friday. I finished there just before 7:30 and headed to see Mom. She was moaning and moving around so I stayed and visited, talking about the 70s and my interpretation of the strange life I was brought up in. She agreed that she was a total prude and Dad was an exhibitionist who didn’t really like wearing clothes or at least liked the feel of the air on his body. That made for a very strict and immoderate upbringing in the 70s, confusing in many ways to a kid. We laughed and shared our remembrance of different events, interested at the perspective. It seems to calm her to laugh and talk and she was able to ride it out until Greg and Cassidy arrived around 945. We all had a good visit and then the three of us grabbed fast food as we were starving, me after a long day of work and them after driving up from Salt Spring Island. Apparently there were some interesting weather related moments driving and the fog and snow were challenging a few times but they made it here safe. Greg is staying at Bill and Deanne’s and Cassidy is with me. I am very surprised that Missy seems cool with her, but then again she is special this niece of mine.
Woke earlier than I wanted to what with the time change and all but decided I should go see Mom. She looked a lot better today and had had a bath and her hair washed. Still not able to stand up unassisted but less pain than previously. Had a good visit and then Bill and Deanne came for a turn, followed by Donna. Donna also dropped me off some potato soup that was delicious. Dr. Nishi came while I was there and said the CT showed her the best looking brain she had seen in a long time but also found a lump in one of her parotid glands which they want to ultrasound and potentially biopsy although she is not worried about cancer. As they can’t get her partial denture out yet, they will likely do a body only MRI to find out why the mobility issues. I taught her how to answer a FaceTime so the kids and grandkids can connect with her. I started watching Daisy Jones and the Six while I waited for the Oscars. Mark recommended it and he was right, totally my kind of show. I also enjoyed the Oscars and got 11 of 23 guessed correctly.
I didn’t sleep as well as I hoped but once I was up and relaxing I started to feel a bit better. It helped that Mom’s cousin Donna went to visit her this morning and reported back that she seemed to be doing well. I took time for me to rest and watch Women Talking which was some powerful and then to start Triangle of Sadness which I will finish tonight. I did make sure to eat a nice Cobb Salad and fill my tank. I got ready to volunteer at Key City tonight, picked up my consignment earnings from a pair of shoes I sold and then stopped to visit with Mom for a couple hours. I was pleased to find her up sitting in a chair and gleefully doing her exercises. I met her nurse for the next three days, Jesse and he was very thorough in getting me to fill in the blanks, promised to watch for her pain levels after dinner and even got the Dr to come talk to me. Dr. Nishi is a lovely human being. She assured me there are no issues with her heart and that they will still be doing an ultrasound of her Thyroid and getting an MRI done. The problem is that her bottom partial denture won’t come out although she had it out on Thursday night. She has to get it loose for the MRI or they will only be able to do a CT scan. Of course the MRI will show much more detail so I have mom constantly trying to get the denture out. Her spirits seemed much better and I hope her evening is going better. Now that I am home she is not answering her texts so I am hoping it is because she is sleeping.
I did finish a puzzle on Thursday night that was fun to do and will start one tonight that is only 500 pieces but may prove to be more challenging.
It was good for me to volunteer bartend the night, refilled my emotional tank a bit
My alarm went off at 8 and I noticed 20 minutes later that Mom had called at 3:38 am. The message was awful and I called her residence to find out she had been taken by ambulance to the hospital. I threw on clothes and rushed there. It is now 10:30 pm and I have just come home. I couldn’t handle another minute watching her in pain. They are doing allllll the tests, no one seems to know what is going on for sure. The staff have been extraordinarily kind and loving. I left for two hours to take care of some things for her and then I have sat and stood by her bed, holding her hand, trying to calm her. I am nearly broken from taking it all and staying upbeat and loving as she deserves me to be. I promised to leave my ringer on so she can call if she needs to. There is nothing more I can do and I can’t get sick from losing a night. I didn’t eat properly or drink water today and must stay healthy so I can be there for her. Her cousin Donna is going to go in the morning and I am on the chart to be called if necessary.
Her day nurse was Ashlee spelled the same way as my daughter and her night nurse Arleigh asked if I was related to Donna Bellavance (my other step-mother). She had been Donna’s nurse for a year on Salt Spring Island, loves her and her sass and hopes she is doing well, What an incredible small world.
It snowed today. One of the chores was to take Mom’s car to Subaru and have it appraised for resale. My friend from poker league is the manager and Huy was very kind to let me know it was in our best interest to sell it privately as we would get more than double what he could offer. I love this small city I live in. My brother Greg is going to drive up on Monday and we will have to take care of some things and hopefully will have some answers.
Today was burger day for me in the middle of Burger Month in Cranbrook. For March, there are 16 restaurants all featuring an off the menu specialty burger and side for $20 with $5 of each one going to the Women’s Resource Centre. If you complete your card with 7 different ones you get a free beer at the end. It’s a win-win, good food and a good cause. I am not usually a burger person and a couple of them have had ingredients that give me indigestion, but still so worth trying them. Today I had lunch with a friend at the Fire Hall and had the Vagabond of Dinktown (Cranbrook’s nickname) and then a late dinner with Rae-Anne at Bayleaf Indian Fusion for the Butter Chicken Burger. I want everyone to try it, it was so messy that I ate it with a knife and fork.
When I was done what I needed to at the office I met Bill and he came and jump started Mom’s car, and then filled her low tires back at his place where we had a great garage visit over a couple beer. It is so nice to be friends after all these years. Not everyone is as lucky as we are to all be family after an acrimonious divorce 35 or so years ago. Rae-Anne and I had a good visit and catch up after taking Mom her laundry and making sure she was all good. I had a good talk with her brother and caught him up on all that is going on. I do love my Uncle Bryan.
Tomorrow I have a client in office in the morning and have to go to one late afternoon. In between I have a mission to take Mom’s car to the Subaru dealer and see what it is worth to sell and to get her some slippers like mine that she can slip on to walk about. And if I have energy left, I will go to the hockey game. Guess I had better get some rest!
I wanted today to be better than it was. I was horrified to see that my Mom couldn’t get out of her chair by herself when I went to pick her up for her physio appointment. We picked up her vial of B12 and went to her appointment using a wheeled chair after pushing her in her walker to the clinic. I was overwhelmed emotionally when she said it is like her feet aren’t listening to her brain. She has a CT scheduled for the 18th as they are concerned she may have had a small stroke in her sleep which has caused this sudden decline in her mobility. She kept saying she was sorry and I kept telling her not to be, that I am just so sad and afraid for what is going on and that we will get to the bottom of it. After the appointment I brought her home, changed her bed and brought all her laundry with me as she is unable to go down the hall to the laundry room. I did make her promise to go down to the dining hall tomorrow night for dinner as the physiotherapist and the Diabetes nurse say she needs to keep moving. I agree as she seems to get worse the longer she just sits. So hard to watch her age by the day. I got storage insurance put on her car so she doesn’t have to make a decision about it right away and her insurance runs out after Friday. Bill is going to go jump start it tomorrow and I will take it for a long drive to charge it up again. I had to go back to the office when I was done with her as I had been gone for 4 hours and needed to run a payroll still. Just got home and threw her laundry in. Gene and Lukas have offered to help her out in the future. They are good boys, and were going to get the bus there after school but I said I would do it this time. I am arranging a home care worker to come and assist her to shower weekly as it will be safer and more comfortable for both of us. Once the laundry is in the dryer I am going to climb into a tub and get a good sleep as I can’t get further behind at work. ‘Night all.
triumphgal 