triumphgal

June 20, 2025

Had a struggle to sleep again last night, but I did manage to get up and at the office by just after 10 in order to engage with everyone for Keri‘s 50th birthday party surprise. The party was awesome. The food was ridiculous and the gift was very well received. I had wanted to leave the office early however they were still audit questions very very late for one of my clients so I had to deal with that before. I finally left in time for my 330 pedicure and now I am very tired, even though I’m working still getting the things sorted and put away before Jake gets here. It is rainy and nasty and there’s a horrible dip in my driveway that they were supposed to fix this week, but I have not returned to Do so. I am not happy considering how much I spent.

June 19, 2025

Today is complicated to explain. I was busy with the usual Thursday things bookkeeping, Rotary lunch, where I hosted the Columbia treaty guy Stan Doehle, locking down the details for my rental car in Florida, gathering information for the upcoming trip to Calgary and ending with trivia night with Brett. We were Brain Wilson’s. we came in for tonight but all things considering that was pretty good and it was great to visit with him at a deeper level. We both consider it therapy to be there on Thursday nights. Before I left the office it was fun to see the ladies decorating Keri’s office for her 50th birthday party tomorrow. I was in charge of the gift. People gave money and I went and bought two expensive amazing bottles of gin. I forgot to take a picture, but I will do so tomorrow. When was mermaid gin and the other comes in an oil cam because at that age you need to oil your joints

The bad news of the day was that a musician that I know from music fest who shares a great connection with so many people in the Comox Valley passed away last night. Anela Kahiamoe will be deeply missed.

The morning started with a reminder of my cousin Kelly as a dragonfly was her favourite

June 18, 2025

I am so extremely tired and I’m not entirely sure why it could be because I had to run around and do a lot of different things today, including a waxing appointment and taking mom to the dentist and then sitting with her for an hour while we try to get through to air miles as she was going to transfer some to me so that I could pay for a rental car and then finding out that there were no air miles wasn’t available

And now I apologize I am just voice to texting to get this done before I head to bed so improper grammar as I’m a bit mumbling as well.

For a couple hours in the evening, I got to enjoy seeing Lukas and Gene and his best friend Jake play in the Mount Baker jazz band. It is the last time that Lukas will get to play with his brother and it was a lot of fun and they were good.

My allergies are bad. That’s probably why I’m feeling the way. I am so off to bed. I should go. 

June 17, 2025

Today was a whole lot of things except much billable time. But you know, that’s OK. I am enjoying the slower pace of June, the catching up on things, being able to visit with people during the day, etc..

At one point today, our new IT guy showed up as my system wasn’t connecting correctly to the network and it was Sanjay! He tried very hard to solve the situation and while he was working on it, I built the other two of my Lego botanicals. It was good for me to just sit and meditate on the build. Although he wasn’t completely able to solve the problem, he did a good work around and even set up outlook to work with all of my emails so I could get rid of Thunderbird. I believe I told him I loved him lol

Once home, I made some dinner and watched a bit of Insatiable which I am enjoying in a weird way. And now I am going to continue working on the sorting of things as I don’t have much time left with leaving on Saturday and Jake arriving the day I return on Thursday.

Pretty chill day, which was nice for a change.

June 16, 2025

Today was a little challenging at work as I was getting payroll done and being interrupted by email from an accountant about a year end audit. They were supposed to be all done with the initial work done in May but were still reaching out this morning for a lot of information. Their lack of time management is not my emergency however it is what I get paid for.

I came home and had a nice visit with Tracey before coming in to continue sorting. The next tote I came to was of all the binders from music fest. I had put everything aside and here it was at a time when I would normally be getting busy replacing the paper in the binders with the next year’s schedule. It was bittersweet to empty all the binders and get a bag ready of stuff to be shredded. Interesting timing after just talking to Cresslynn yesterday as well. It did make me smile when I came across a binder with a divider in it that Riley had drawn years and years ago. I decided to keep it. It’s all over but the shredding. Sad feels.

On the upside in spite of how my dining room table looks at the moment, I have made great headway on the sorting of all the totes of randomness.

June 15, 2025

I slept late and then got busy sorting the bins of random stuff. In between a went out and watered my new grass portion. It’s supposed to be water three times a day, which is turning out to be annoying already. It better grow.

I got pretty far with the sorting and feel confident that I will have a space for Jake and Emmy before I have to leave on Saturday. However, there are piles of things and partial totes of sorted items everywhere at the moment.

Roger Ray and the two younger boys stop by to pick up a bunch of bottles from my neighbour and while they were here, I got Roger to place the rest of my pavers that were stacked in an annoying spot. I will settle them all better on a cooler day, but super grateful.

While I was sorting, I finished watching Ginny and Georgia and then the rest of Pieces of Her. The first I really liked the second not so much. I found myself very in my fields today while I was sorting I was trying to be brutal about the things to toss and the things to take to the thrift store. It took a little while to remember why I was sad though. I still miss my dad.

I did put some things for free on marketplace and was grateful there was a quick response from a lady who can use it for kids camp. I also listed my CPAP mask cleaner on Combi wars and hope that it sells. It was a productive day, but I still see so much to do. that being said, I am relaxing now watching Trainwreck the AstroWorld tragedy. My ankle has not loved me being so busy on it this weekend.

June 14, 2025

Well, I guess last night’s emotion sat with me because I woke up at 5:19 AM and couldn’t get back to sleep so I was out in the yard at a decent time weeding and clearing and levelling so that I could plant my grass that comes in a roll like paper towel. While I was working on it, my neighbour Deb peaked over and we were having great chats and she end up coming over and digging up all the raspberries that were between her place in my shed and taking them as hers needed replenishing. That was a huge bonus for me. I got tired and hot at one point and my ankle was swelling up so I came in to watch a couple more episodes of Ginny and Georgia with my foot up. When I went out later to finish mowing, Deb invited me over for a beverage. We had a great visit. She is 70 and just so full of energy. I came back home showered and headed over for a visit with Monica before we went to the Key City next season preview. There are a few things that I will definitely want to see a couple of them unfortunately, are well I am away. Afterword, we went back to her place and each one a game of patchwork before the tiebreaker, which was very close I only won by three buttons it was a good day, but I am very exhausted

On my way back from Deb’s, I saw my neighbours cat miaowing to get my attention in the front window. Tracy has been away for a week and poor Daisy is likely lonely. Tracy sister has been coming to feed her etc. but I don’t think she’s visiting with her. I’m glad that Tracey got home this evening.

June 13, 2025

I woke up this morning thinking about my friend Ruth. Yesterday morning the chair of the board for one of my clients came for a meeting and we were all sitting around having a coffee before beforehand when somehow Salt Spring came up and she asked me how long I’d live there and did I know Ruth Kirby. It seems they were close friends at one time had worked together and she had lost touch with her. I was sad to tell her that Ruth had died from cancer over a decade ago now. It was nice to make the connection of someone else who cared for her and once again proved what a small world it is.

The big puddle I came home to yesterday had not dissipated overnight and I texted the caving company to ask how soon they could fix it so that I didn’t have to walk in water to get into my car. I was told they will come next week.

I had a dentist appointment at 10 where the hygienist and I had a giggle as the music that was playing in the office seem to be the karaoke hits. She couldn’t resist singing along.

I got back to the office and did some work and then went to get my nails done as I was lucky to get an appointment today being that I had managed to peel two of them off. Once again, Minh did magic.

Once back at the office, I got more things done, including booking my flight home from Florida and deciding what I’m going to do while I am there. So that was exciting.

I popped home for a break before heading to Key City Theatre for 545 to volunteer for the Canadian tribute fundraiser concert for Fisher Peak Performing Artists Society

I was a little anxious about the whole experience as I knew that I would see the person that treated me poorly this week. The great thing was, I had more hugs and love from musicians and audience than I could’ve hoped for. Unfortunately, the show started 23 minutes late and ran long, but it was so nice to see so many talented people from the area I live in play.

It is done and it is good to be home

June 12, 2025

Today was a mishmash of things and feelings. I was at work early and managed to get a lot done today, including transferring information to the society’s new accountant and being proud of handling it in a very professional way

Rotary lunch was interesting as Keith Powell was there speaking on behalf of CAMAL, Cranbrook, archives, museum, and landmark Society. They operate the train museum and now Fort Steele. This is a very good takeover of Fort Steele and I see promise for the future

I laughed when Norm told me it was funny that I had a picture of myself on my outfit

I got some important things done this afternoon, including filing my widowed friend Rhonda, her husband and son‘s tax returns and my daughter’s. I have been waiting for information for all of them and was able to file them as the last ones of the season. This would usually lead me to in the past texting or calling Jackie or more recently zooming all I had to say was it is done and I will get the thumbs up at a good laugh of understanding

I was missing that connection and celebration for the first time as long as I can remember when it occurred to me that I still had my stack of Lego botanicals to build at the office and on top was the orchid, Jackie’s favourite flower. Around 4 o’clock I shut down and began to build in an hour later or so I had a beautiful flower of tribute to my dear friend that I will now see from my office spot every day.

I dodged the pouring rain and lightning to get to Encore for friends with benefits meet up and then Brett and his girls and Roger join me for trivia night where I named the team it’s Brett’s birthday, because it is! We had a lovely evening and we won on a tiebreaker came home with 30 bucks each and five dollars each for the girls just for fun

I snuck a picture of a guy and sent it to my friend Jeppe because this guy reminded me all night of his brother who is gone now. Yeppe agreed that minus the tattoos there was a strong resemblance to Yo. He and I had a nice little text back-and-forth, enjoying the memories of the time we spent together on Salt Spring.

I got home and was thoroughly disappointed at the swimming pool in my carport. I’m going to have to send a picture to the paving guys as this will be unacceptable to leave for very long. I had to step out of my car into a puddle and it will be ice in the winter.

I know they will fix it. I just don’t want them to leave it very long.

June 11, 2025

I worked and brought Mom to the dentist and went to Rotary board meeting at the Heid-out and then back to work and then to home to have some dinner before meeting Rae-Anne and Roger and Bill at Key City for Will’s grade 8 band concert.

They really did a great job and I have to say that the grade 7 band who opened before them was very good.

I transferred all the files over for the organization. I was involved with before today and volunteered to work the door for Key City Theatre the night of the show. I feel like I am taking my power back and not gonna let them put me down.

June 10, 2025

Today, in spite of reliving every board meeting at night, I feel much better. I got a lot done and headed to Heid Out to meet Laurie for our semi-annual dinner out. It was so great to catch up and talk about Italy where she’s just returned from. Deb booked our experiences in Rome and my share was $744 which covers all the best tours. I am actually getting excited!

It was very hot today and yet my office was freezing cold from the air-conditioning so either being in or out the transition was hard on a body. It’s unbelievable that 27°C feels cool at the moment.

June 9, 2025

I was texting with a friend who is still on the FPPAS board, although he has stepped down as president and jokingly said I’m still on for Friday night right lol. His reply stunned me. Had Ward not told me that he had asked someone else to emcee?

I was incredibly shocked to say the least, as I was asked by the past present, who was the organizer to please stick with the organization long enough to be the MC.

I admit it hit me in all the feels; first anger which then quickly turned to complete disappointment, and then incredible sadness ramping quickly into depression.

The last stage was especially brought on when I received a terse not apologetic email from the acting president just stating the facts that indeed someone else was going to be the MC.

I talked to the powerful kind women that work around me who all agreed that I should reply with a skin peeling email, however what I couldn’t clearly communicate is the buttons that a situation like this pushes and my feeling that should I try to respond in a reactive way it would only get worse.

I replied to the email that I did find the disrespect untenable and that I had never done anything to hurt him.

This was his reply

I responded immediately with the simple directions to remove my credit card from the society, Google suite, including full directions how to do so, and did not mention the body of the email at all.

I then sat and cried as the accusations were unfounded, but my instinct led me to question my behavior, and how it came across. Maybe I was to blame for this situation somehow.

I finally thought to call another board member who had also left (4 in all recently) and had been the secretary. I needed to run it past her if she remembered any of that behavior.

Elva made it very clear that I was being gaslit. She has recordings of all the board meetings in order to do her notes later in the evening. She said they were many heated discussions over the course of the year between other board members that didn’t even include me and never once was there more than a decibel of voices raised. She encouraged me. She told me that no one who knows me would ever believe that about me and if they do believe it, they don’t matter. It was what I needed to hear from someone who was there.

The problem is, I do see the bigger picture. He is a man who is trying to push things through in an unprofessional and not long-term thought out way, and I questioned him. I felt that is my position on a board, my responsibility, to question things and then go with the majority. As long as all the questions have been asked, all options are on the table. Good decisions can be made. Apparently, being the question asking person is a negative in little boy in a man’s body world.

Of course, having been treated this way in my life has left me susceptible to internalizing. I am writing all this tonight so that I can truly process and let go and move on. The really sad thing is that I was already missing VIMF and now I don’t have the joy of summer sounds either.

I did look up the definition of gaslighting, and I asked Siri how to respond to it

I completely resigned in every way from the organization today. That is number three and six

I have email, the receipts, if you will . Number five

I definitely did two and four

I am working hard on number one

I had made plans back in November with Deb to see a show tonight and we planned to do dinner first. I wasn’t sure I was going to be good company but now I am really glad that I went and had a good visit with her and we talked about our upcoming trip and we had a delicious dinner at the modern olive before going to see a whole New World at Key City Theatre. That was much better than sitting home in the sad.

June 8, 2025

I haven’t got to bed at three in the morning. I slept till noon. I then went and picked up Lukas and we went to Home Depot to get post holders and post followed by a stop at Top Crop for more mulch. We worked our butts off for about four hours or so and then I dropped him off at their family friends for dinner. I gave him the $25 choice gift card that I won last night and he was very happy. I am very happy that I now have a proper fence and a gate that works. After dinner and rest and it cooled down to about 24 I went out and put the last little panel up to block they are getting in that was part of my last gate. I also installed solar lights on top of the posts and I’m waiting for dark so I can see how beautiful they will be. It was a very good day.

When I stopped to pick up Lukas, I had a little visit with Gene and noticed that he has his Fluevogs on display in his living room. He said he wished he had $1 million so he could buy that brand of shoes to wear every day. See, it’s genetic.

June 8, 2025

I woke up at a decent time and headed to a client to work for the day.

When we were done, I came home and watched a few episodes of And Just Like That before, heading over to Monica’s to hang out with her and Jessica and Serena. We took a cab to the Eagles Hall where the drug show for pride month was happening. I was blessed to be on Monica‘s guest list. It was an extraordinary evening. The performers were all at their best and so much fun was had in the safe environment of the Eagles. The last two years have been at a bar where more locals with negative impact showed up over the course of the evening. Tonight felt safe and fun and as an ally, I had a great time. After the show Monica‘s husband Galen, who was heavily involved in running it drove us back to their place and Monica and I had a great visit. I can’t believe it’s already 2:43 in the morning. Apparently, this old gal can still rock it. I was so impressed with the body positivity, and the pure joy that was happening at this event.

June 6, 2025

I went into work today and got the third of four big projects finished before taking off at two to head for Elkford. My bonus granddaughter’s second birthday party was to be at 4 o’clock. It was very well attended all the kids were great and it was so nice to spend time just hanging out. Emmy Gwen and Thea can all be standoffish, but Gwen has come around to me and as I went to leave today, Thea came to me with arms wide open for a hug for the first time. It was really nice to meet Malcolm’s mom, Aimee, who was here from Winnipeg just for the party. She is Filipino and made the most delicious food and sent me home with leftovers. I also came with extra birthday cake that Danika came that was delicious as well. I stopped for gas on the way back and managed to get it for $1.159 per Litre by using only 4000 PC points for the extra .10 off which was an incredible savings. It’s a shame they are two hours each direction away. I am sleepy from the drive, but glad that I went.

June 5, 2025

I got up and got on the treadmill and did all the right things and then headed to work. From there, I went to pick up mom‘s pills before going to my Rotary lunch, which was ” interesting.”

The surprise speaker at lunch was John Rustad, the leader of the conservative party of BC. It was interesting to watch him try to give a non-partisan speech. he did have some interesting stats and figures about times for building permits and housing, crisis, etc., but I still found it uncomfortable. I did get a little clamped when I did a happy bucks announcement to celebrate Gene’s graduation and cadet award

After the meeting, I went to mom’s to give her her pills and have a short visit before heading back to the office. I did get two major things sorted and done off my list which deserves a happy dance.

Have to work I headed over to Encore as it was friends with benefits night and Jesse was there giving a talk about he and Fred and Paul’s turning on the El Camino Trail. After that, it was trivia and I joined up with John and his wife whose name I have forgotten already to become the team 3,2,1…Liftoff. Left off as one of the Encore beer. We did pretty good but not good enough. It was fun though and it was fun to watch Lukas at work there.

I got home to the wonderful surprise that the weed warrior had been here and taken care of a nasty pile of dirt and compost that I inherited from the original owners nearly 6 years ago.

Now I am hunkered down, watching a handmaid‘s tale.