I woke at a reasonable time and puzzled while I watched ‘the boy, the mole, the fox and the horse’ on Apple TV+. It was as lovely as the book my friends sent me, by Charlie Mackesy. I should like to watch or read it regularly to remind myself… well of all the good, of being enough. And I discovered it is a Bad Robot production which also pleases me.
I haded over to pick up Diane R as she had planned to make me food and have a visit. We started at the Mall so I could trade my gift book in as it was a duplicate. I got one I really wanted but wouldn’t have gotten otherwise.We had a good laugh at the calendar I would have bought if I’d seen it before I got my banksy one. Nah, I love mine.
Next stop was the dollar store where I saw gloves just made for me
We went back to Diane’s where we enjoyed a gluten and dairy free lasagna that she’d made and it was good, although I am not a fan of the texture of the rice noodles. Best of all was having a good visit, getting to see all the renovations she’s done to her home and playing a game she made that basically involves an abacus and 6 dice. She fondly calls it the old man game as it was some old family friend who introduced them to it. She also spoiled me for Christmas!
I had a shift at Arby’s but was home at a decent time and am continuing to watch succession. I just discovered it isn’t the one Rae-Anne suggested as that is Severance. I will have to watch it next. I do like Kieran Culkin in the series I am watching. As I was watching, I did a scratch and win game and won $50!
I was up in the night, violently ill. I now believe I didn’t double dose last time I tried my sleep capsules, I am allergic. Or at least there is some kind of triggered response that makes my system want to purge it as best it can. This has happened twice in my late 30s, early 40s and twice last year. Last night was just terrible and I wonder what the strain is that is causing the problem or if I need to avoid it all now. I have managed to not have a cigarette already since Wednesday at 4:45pm and then felt drag butt all day so not the best night to consider going out. I was committed to it though so I made more crab tarts to take. The whole day was in and out of naps, cleaning up my own vomit from the bed, bedroom floor, and in the tub. I looked after myself and Steph came to pick me up for the Poker League. Tonight was at Mark’s and there were 14 of us and there were some good games, good snacks and a nice visit with all. Got home just before Midnight and made my bed with the freshly clean linen. Missy has been amusing, as if she’s just found her tail.
Today I was at the office earlier than usual and worked my tushka off all day getting files set up for payroll next week. My friend Peter stopped by for a good long visit after his 100 day tour of Europe and the Middle East. We had lots to catch up on as I wait a file while he was away. He assured me that I was dissed, that I am appreciated and that I should not step in to help at this time. I appreciate his big picture view of it all. It was the final step in the, ‘you have to wait until Dad gets home’, part of the equation. I didn’t finish all I wanted to but enough that I don’t feel like I HAVE to go in this weekend. I was on a mission to leave at 4:30 so I could get home and make Dungeness crab tarts for the seafood dinner at the Guedes house tonight. We had stalled it for a week and it was fun to hang with 3 Perreault’s, 4 Crozier’s, 6 Guedes’s, 2 students, and me! There was sooooo much food and sooooo many varieties of seafood treats. I came home at a decent time after stopping at the liquor store to pick up Crown, Bowmore and Gingerbread Captain’s. Good to stock up again. It is nice to relax on the couch, having enjoyed good company and food
Tim Tam!I didn’t buy this, but it amuses meOn the hood of my car
Assist a client and then spend nearly 9 hours on one file.
Complete books and reports for FPPAS board meeting on Monday
Investigate seeing Bono in New York, wouldn’t be lovely to meet friends from away there… NOPE!
Filed complaints with company and my bank. All because apparently in the fine print of a free trial was a box that had to be unchecked. SCAM!! Am changing cc number just in case. I still am not sure how it got by me as I am ferocious about security and really am still laughing that I may be interested in a US Military man.
Filled the tank with a 4 cent off coupon.
Used the gas coupons at Safeway where I got groceries for the first time in a very long time. Good to have fruit and veg (and chips) in the house again.
Home by 9 to unload, make a nice chicken cordon bleu for dinner and enjoy my one and only rum and eggnog of the season. Sipping it with joy.
It is nice to have a light at the end of the tunnel, those things that help you get through a day or week. I received a text for help at a client before I had even had a coffee, so I filled my To Go cup and off I went. It was after 11 before I was back at the office to continue working in a better environment with two screens. Lunch at the desk and several files later I was happy to head to meet a client for dinner at Fire & Oak. It was rib night and worth every penny. So was the good company. It was nice to get to know Laurie better after doing her books for over a year and a half. She is an amazing human, a great business woman and just nice to be around. Her company, Earth’s Own Naturals has two locations, in Kimberley and Fernie and she keeps the area out of pain and relaxed. I had been looking forward to tonight even though I am so very tired. 3 hours went by easily. I came home craving isolation though and just worked on my puzzle for a bit before it was time to do this and head to bed. The next two days aim to be as crazy.
I did love my new socks with my oh so comfy Fluevogs
The beginning of my work day was not my favourite as everyone who has been off enjoying their holidays decided today was the day to request things from me. I am glad that I did as much as I did working through the season. I let it get to me first thing though and was glad when I had to leave the office to go for lunch at Mr.Mike’s with Mom, Rosie, Jeanne and Donna for Donna’s birthday. Three sisters and their cousin, Barb are eerily similar. Mom doesn’t have the boisterous laugh but I do so it makes up for it. I guess it skipped a step-generation. I left them in a much better mood and headed back to the office to get a silly amount of work done in a hurry before heading for my 5-7 shift at Arby’s. There are new products, specials and many coupons out this month so a lot to learn but was all good, until I ran into the corner of the open dishwasher on the outside of my left knee. I knew right away it was bad from the pain but kept going an waited until I got home to see it even scraped through my denim pants and is a little swollen. I’ll be fine but it was a good reminder that when I am feeling life is a little extra, I lose my personal space awareness and need to be extra careful.
Tomorrow brings it’s own triage list but I am up for it and looking forward to dinner out at Fire & Oak on a client’s invite.
I weighed in this morning slightly disappointed as it shows I have lost 39 pounds and I wanted it to land on 40. That is absolutely ridiculous as overall in the last 365 days I have lost .1049 pounds per day, .769 per week or 3.33 per month. No small feat. In between there was a surgery that set me back and I will never be over 200 again. I had lost 41 but gained 2 over Christmas. In the same period last year I gained over 5 so I will count that as a win. I look at these numbers and still feel deflated, but I will buckle down as I have a goal to lose 24 more by my 60th birthday in April. That was my goal for 2022, but I gave myself grace and will work on gratitude. I had to go buy some new clothes as I don’t like the feel of things hanging off me, am grateful that my pants fit at my waist again (what an odd feeling) and have confidence and better health. I must stand on that joy
so many things are odd this year, I am trying not to dwell on it too much but… for the first time I can remember, I didn’t put up a tree or decorate inside for Christmas, I sent random cards only while I usually send 50-60 of them, I didn’t do Christmas or New Year texts or messages to all the people I love like I usually do… I am not sure what that is about. I wonder how much of it is the process of letting go. I have ‘peripheral’ people in my life that I miss desperately and can’t wait to hug again and then there are others that I wonder if I am just going through the motions. Maybe I am just as self centered as some think I am and am better alone. I am considering beginning to take trips alone, no expectations, no drama. I don’t think this is depression settling in, I am generally feeling good, but there is a shift happening for sure. The slow internet at the office today was frustrating as I had to write down my time to allow for it, it isn’t the client’s fault. This grinds on me and again makes me consider moving my office home again. So many thoughts, all I know is I will keep sharing here so I keep an eye on my mental health. Focus on the positive, not wallow in the sad little first world issues I have.
I wonder if working to long and hard today didn’t help.
I didn’t set an alarm but woke before 9 even though I went to sleep late. I puttered around the house, did laundry, dishes and sorted things to be put away. I then uncovered my puzzle finally and saw how much of it was messed up since last I worked on it. I made a big pot of rice, left it to cook in the fridge and rummaged in the freezer for fried rice ingredients. I puzzled and watched the first season of Wednesday which I did enjoy. It was overall just a relaxing day with no answering of email. I posted my extra tickets to Rock in the Kootenays in August and sold them pretty quick to a friend. There is a certain amount of trust necessary as I will want them to be paid for but have to show up on the day of to get the tickets. At least I will be able to put 634.50 back on my credit card! I like the person who bought them and look forward to hanging out with her. I am sitting on the couch at the moment on episode 2 of Harry & Meghan on Netflix but shall head off to bed soon as tomorrow will be busy with the first payrolls to run for the year and in new software for some. Happy New Year to all of you out there!!
I was up doing chores and heading to the office at a decent time. I worked on files until it was time to go to the Hockey Game. First I set up my new Scentsy from the Guedes clan, I do love The Child
It is a melty blue sky day, the best of winter.
I picked up Tracey and off we went to have a great experience at the last game of the year. I was obsessed by reading that 4 of the Gus on our team go to Yale. I wonder how that works?
Heather Gemmel rocked the anthem
I came home after the game and made some marinated shrimp in preperation of the seafood night. I had however missed the memo, that we weren’t doing that tonight. I was glad I reached out and headed over. We had a nice visit and I said good-bye to the Knight family as they are leaving in the morning. We all had champagne and I caught a few pics. They are a wonderful bunch.
On the way home I tried to capture the beauty that is the big decorative star on the hill that I see coming home every day. It seems that the beauty is illusion, but trust me, it is there.
I am not sure what the year of 2023 will bring, nor what my hopes even are. I want to include travel, even if not out of the country. It is time to live smaller, travel bigger…
OMG, I just saw a commercial for the next season of Ted Lasso, please let it be soon!!
At the office early after my very good sleep that was busted by the alarm. Ran two payroll and then headed to Arby’s for a shift. Once I was done I was supposed to go to a client but he was not ready for me so I went back to the office to pick up a pay that one client had missed and then went there. I was there until 6 and then back to the office to keep working on it for another hour before heading to pick up Steph and go to our poker night at Landon’s. I was happy to be one of 30 invited and was really looking forward to it. I did well until the downstairs tables were amalgamated to our upstairs ones, leaving 14 of us. One of the people, whom I know well and doesn’t really know how to play just kept going all in without even looking at her cards because she wanted to leave. It threw off the whole game and when I had an Ace Queen suited, I finally went all in to call her and was beat by a straight. I was sad to be out but more so as it was due to the frustration of her game play. I should have just kept folding but the potential of doubling up was there. I did meet one of the other players, Shawna, and we sat on the couch and had a great get to know you. I hope to meet again.
My phone continues to bring me joy with the images it share. My eldest is my heart. She is brave and strong and caring. Her smile lights up a room and my heart
There were funny bird prints by my car today. Not sure what it was but it amused me with it’s wandering path around the parking lot
The sad part of the day was learning that I was fucking right again. I have a friend that the last three times I have seen him I have been struck by the knowledge that he is not well, that he is wasting away. I ask him how he is doing, gently comment on his weight loss and am told that he is just watching his diet. The problem is… I know sometimes when someone is going to die. It turns out he was just diagnosed with late stage, terminal pancreatic cancer. He has a young teen son and a lovely wife. My heart breaks for them. I hate being right in these cases.
It started with a manicure which I love and a good visit with Minh as he did it.
I walked across the mall to Northern Reflections as I noticed they had a 50 percent off sale and I was still seeking a new outerwear vest. I usually find it to be too old lady for me but there was one vest in my new size so I decided to get it. Just as I was heading to the till I see my cousin Donna approaching and we decided to try on clothes. I ended up getting three good quality shirts, a night shirt, my vest and two lotions for a 218 dollar saving, costing only 171! I talked her into getting a less large pair of shirts as we all default to how we think we are. The smaller sizes looked really flattering on her. After that we went and grabbed some lunch together which was very enjoyable.
Back to the office I went and didn’t leave again until well after 9 but I got a lot done ready for January 1st. Stacey stopped in and we had a great visit. She said the roads are very bad out her way and I am grateful she was in the big truck with a heavy load of tires so she would have better traction.
I was wonderfully surprised to find a gift from the UK on my doorstep when I returned home and am chuffed with the innards. A new mug, who doesn’t love a good pun?! Two gorgeous decorations, they know me so well. These will likely be hung all year, just need to find their perfect home. The magnet is from their trip to Svalbard, which has a fascinating history to it. Look it up, seriously!
I made stuffed mushrooms when I got home and enjoyed the even more as they were made from part of yesterday’s gift. It was a productive and relaxing day, all in all, a good one.
I had a toss and turn night exacerbated by the heat of an all too clingy cat. Missy curls up and snuggles and demands attention and pets since I got home from Christmas. I give in to her demands but also wish I could lock her out of my room for the night sometimes. She was supposed to be my standoffish cat!!
It had been super windy in the night apparently and the gang all look like they laughed themselves silly. Mr may even have peed a little given the colour of the cat
First stop of the day was the office to get payroll done, another one set up in QBO for a client and answer email before heading to a client for the afternoon. It seems the drain with a hose was a good idea as that is what I found when I got there.
Fortunately my last Christmas gift arrived and another worker brought it to me. It was the gloves I ordered for my neighbour and for Gene. Although they appear to be very good quality and both of them are happy with them, I sent a complaint to Wagjag that they are not as described. It clearly says, even in the fine print that they are rechargeable but they are in fact battery operated. 3 AA in each glove!
Before I left this morning, I asked Tracey if she would like to join me at Avatar: The Way of Water for the 4:45 show. I bought the tickets and snacks online. Right after that a shift came up at Arby’s but once again, this week, I was ok to say no, sorry, can’t do it. I am covering a shift on Friday though. Glad to, actually.
I went off to the client’s and got things ready to continue at the office tomorrow, then it was off to the Mall for a quick shop for a calendar, bras and underwear. I also like to scope out Christmas shirts for next year while they are on sale. Found a cute one, and one for a gift to put away. I got a new Banksy calendar to replace the one I have enjoyed this year. Tracey met me for the movie and I have to admit, I really enjoyed it. It was the 3D one and I felt so peaceful when I came out even though there were moments when I could hear my heart beating. I sure do love my Loops. There were predictable moments but I just loved being in the water world. The words they say to calm their breathing are the way experience SCUBA diving. My peaceful calm happy place is under water and I hope to experience it again soon.
Once home I poured a bath complete with a THC bath bomb and continued watching She-Hulk. Cheesy as hell but lighthearted and fun. I was sorry when The Crown season 5 was done last night. I am not sure at all how I feel about it, how much is accurate. I need to talk to my besties in the know, although I suspect they don’t watch it. Planned to watch Harry & Meghan, but just felt like tuning out for a bit.
I completely forgot one of the best moments of the day was when a friend called my who is the area managers for one of the bid food supply companies in the area. sadly his supply truck had rolled off the road today and he had food to part with as it was all written off by insurance and thought of me with all my family. He dropped off a case of fresh mushrooms, half a case of fresh tomatoes, three bottles of Heinz ketchup, a container of Hollandaise, big bag of shredded cheese and many bags of cereal. I dropped it at the Guedes house, coming home with smaller portions of cheese, tomatoes, and mushrooms which will soon be stuffed mushrooms!
I headed into the office, got most things done on the list that I could while just down the hall, the roof was pouring down melt. I am fortunate not to be in the wake. After work I was I voted back to the Guedes house where Roger’s sister and family had arrived. After a delicious Turkey Caesar salad dinner, Jonas came back to my place to clear all that had slid off my metal roof. I teased him about being Canadian as he was in short pants and sleeves. I am very grateful to have it all cleared away. Back at the house it was lovely to sit and puzzle with Deanne before playing Jack Box with the gang. It was so relaxing and fun and just a really great day over all. I had been asked if I could come help at Key City, painting the floor for Cabaret opening on New Years but the family fun was more important. I look forward to watching the 5th Harry Potter movie with Will and Autumn, continuing where we left off last Christmas. Ugh, I just heard another drop off the roof, best go deal with it.
I was up relatively early deciding to unload and reload the dishwasher, wash the remains and get some breakfast pinwheels and bacon made before Rae-Anne needed to go to work. Sayer and Emmy were up and struggling to find common ground for play but they did. Had a bit of a visit and then realized I was suffering from serious sensory overload so took Emmy and headed back to my place. I cleared the snow off most things in my yard including my car which I had found frozen this morning. It is now snow free and good to go. It has been melting most of the day and freezing at the same time, if that makes sense. This has created havoc on the roads, closing those west of here. Thankfully Roger’s sister and family made it through from Olympia Washington and I hear, are happy at the Guedes house where I dropped off an air mattress after bringing Emmy to her Mom staying at her Grandma’s house. Emmy and I had a great afternoon playing Wii Games, she always knocks me out at Boxing and is pretty great at Bowling as well. She enjoyed the bit of breakfast I brought her home for lunch, loving the face on her plate, very Wilson!
Near Moyie
I have been doing laundry, settling back home and sorting my Christmas goodies. The fresh bed is going to feel divine when I tuck in. I have been watching season 5 of The Crown although it may not hold a candle to watching the original Charlie Brown’s Christmas with Emmy. She was quite impressed that I was 2 when it came out. After that we started watching the Snoopy Show on Apple TV which is really lovely. She saw pictures I have and asked who they were. Once they were established to be me and my brother when very young, she said he was very cute, asked it I had a sister and then asked very many astute questions about my deceased Sister, Rae-Anne. She was saddened that I never met her enough to to remember her. I think it means more now that she has a baby sister.
I keep revisiting the favourite time of Christmas for me, playing the game with Bill, Rae-Anne and Ashlée last night. Man did we laugh with abandon. It was good for the soul. I only wish poor Deanne had been puzzling on the dining room table where we were playing rather than in the kitchen. I was really struggling with the heat in the place, especially that near the fireplace so we were playing in the cooler room. I didn’t like leaving her out there as I know how it feels to be left out even unintentionally. But I will admit, after a bit, there was so much laughter (and drinking) I was selfishly just soaking up the moment.
I dislike that I made anyone uncomfortable with my emotional responses the last two days. I was happy to be there and glad to get home. I hope we take some family picks when next Jake is up as that was the most disappointing part of him not being here..
For now, to keep him safe, I shall properly install him soon.
Today was very full of all sorts of gifts and love and moments but as I tuck in, I can say that the most fun was playing games at the end of the night with Bill, Rae-Anne and Ashlée. First was Disney villains Sorry and then a Rudolph Christmas game similar but better than Snakes and Ladders, both of which involved drinking and fun and it was great to share the moment with these family members that involved so many loud voices and belly laughs.
The day began with Sawyer snuggling in to wake me up from a terrible sleep. It was time, Santa had been here. We all settled in to open presents taking time to acknowledge the giver. I was spoiled as usual and enjoyed seeing what others got, especially R&R getting birdhouses made by their boys. The highlights were Bono book from Ash and The incredible addition to my Stephen King collection crafted by Rae, created by Addison and painted by Roger. I can’t wait to add it to my bookshelf. I also received the fanciest rubber gloves ever that I can’t wait to use at work. There was so much more and I was happy to get breakfast made for all. This was Rosemary Maple Bacon, banana bread from Diana and Breakfast loaves as well as toast with Cinnamon spread. Everyone seemed full and happy and there were snacks through the day. I really do like coming up with something new each year
Ash’s awesome shirtGene’s new hunting gearEven more Scentsy for my office, Yay!Left overs
Emmy showed up and then I went home to shovel and feed Missy. Came back to pack up and all go for a walk in the Community Forest to Mistletoe Lane. It was long and the kids were amazing. The older ones took great pleasure kicking trees to knock the snow down. Jesse and Nesta, owners of Arby’s and their family, along with Jen and Cherry from the Philippines who I love working with, joined us and we all had a lovely long March through he decorated forest.
I stopped to pick up Mom open the way back and then off to get Judy, Roger’s mom , for dinner as well. We had a delicious turkey dinner thanks to all the hands involved and then there was puzzling and visiting before I brought the Grandma Polar Express tour to drive the ladies home . Once back was when the games and fun truly began for me 🙂
Homemade ice-cream
It seems my snow peeps had a few family members over that couldn’t handle their alcohol
Oh, I forgot Emmy’s present from her cousins that made me laugh
I was up at a decent time, preheated the oven and was ready to make nuts and bolts for a few gifts when I realized that on my odd shopping trip last weekend with mom I forgot to get butter. Can’t make them without a pound of butter. Got ready, tended to my Snow Peep story after shoveling, filled up with gas, only 155.9 a Litre!, and then stopped at Safeway. While I was there I also grabbed a platter with bread and spinach dip and dropped it off at Arby’s. By the time I was home it was after noon and I had much to get done. While the snacks were baking with stirring intervals at the 30 minute mark, I watched a Dan Levi and Kristen Stewart Christmas movie while I sorted and wrapped the last of my presents. I then whipped up a couple loaves of egg, bacon, chives, buttermilk and cheese for tomorrows breakfast and had a shower while they were baking. Once I was finally loaded into the car, I headed over to the Guedes house where 11 of us are staying overnight. We had a lovely ham dinner and then all loaded into cars to go to Bill and Deanne’s church for a lovely service before going to check out a light show and then candy cane lane. It was time to drop off Emmy with her Mom for the evening and then we started looking for Santa who drives around Cranbrook. Ash said, Mom I think he is going to your house, so we booted there to get parked before he came around the corner. I don’t know why we are on the route but it is a real blessing and I was as excited as the kids. Funny that we don’t get garbage or recycle pickup because it is considered a private road, but we get Santa!! After that it was back to the house so the boys could open their jammies and head off to bed. Love Gene’s Arby’s ones and Lukas’s Boba Fett! Then the adults got all the stockings stuffed, I beat Roger and Deanne at Rummikub, and finished the frame of a puzzle before deciding that this head cold is enough! Off to bed.
Gwen’s Paw Patrol was Fun to wrap
Mr and Mrs had someone come between them but Sandy Claws came to the rescue and restored peace in time for the holidays, Merry Christmas everyone!!
I stopped at Canadian Tire before work to pick up a present for Emmy (a super cute Flamingo case of Polly Pocket) and then got Jake to sign a note to her and email it to me so I could print it for her. In exchange, he is going to take a very nice bottle of wine from me to the friends he will now spend Christmas with. I got a great deal done at the office, popped out to buy Nikki and I lunch as I needed to eat before covering the 4:30-9:30 shift at Arby’s. Sickness is making the rounds again. There were only a couple of us actually working today, it was more a festive gathering of folks making Christmas presents on the laser cutter. I am glad I got mine done early. I am still waiting for one parcel with two people’s gifts, my neighbour’s and Gene’s. I got a notice this morning that it was out for delivery but it did not arrive. I tracked it tonight and says it won’t be here until the 29th or 30th. Booo
The other sadness in the day was knowing Jake wouldn’t be arriving tonight and I was reminded of it once again when my phone notified me of his arrival time.
The snow peeps decided to celebrate Tibb’s Eve and invited a bunch of friends over. The cat is already Lit! I wasn’t sure what I would come home to and sure enough they didn’t disappoint.
Great bits of the day were my advent, and finding a gift on my doorstep from the lovely Diana. Jake will be sad to miss out on her banana bread. She is extremely good at gifts and for the second time found the perfect card. I shall enjoy the project.
My mind wanders while I am doing dishes at the restaurant. I inwardly curse when I find containers still thick with sauces, spoons and servers coated in butter, pans with fries, etc still on them in the soap water. It takes only a few seconds to wipe them out or scrape them off but instead I end up with gross water that has to be changed to do a proper job. Don’t even get me started about leaving the date labels on the containers, lol. I know it’s not a big deal but the dish washer is the one seen as too slow when all these things weigh down the task. I think I will make sure my phone is charged and listen to music instead of the inside of my own brain as the one who washes gets to play their music I found out last night! I enjoyed tonight as I got to take a 14 year old under my wing and get him fine tuned on a few things. I wonder if I can now take the ‘in training’ off my name tag, lol. It really is lovely to get to say Merry Christmas to all the customers out the drive thru window as you hand them their food.
I was up and ready for the Culligan Man this morning. It is my annual service and the guy who comes to do it is really quite lovely although a bit of a bull in a china shop. I was anxious for him to get finished so I could get to the office, finish a payroll and head to a client before my 5-8:30 shift at Arby’s. While he was working, I braved the cold to continue the story of my snow peeps. He bought her a new scarf and surprised her with a pet. It was a heart melting day for her.
When I got to the office even my computer summed it up perfectly
I was wonderfully surprised by a young man who stopped his truck, threw on his gloves and assisted me with my recycle when I couldn’t lift the lid that was frozen and laden with snow. It was a lovely moment.
I had a great day at all my jobs and really am impressed with Ashlée as a trainer and shift manager. She has a good over site of everything and offers us options on jobs before our shift is complete. I never feel that because I am a fill in, I should do the ‘dirty’ jobs. I do try to take the ones that others don’t love, like cleaning the bathrooms, like cleaning the bathrooms. I do have an extensive amount of experience at it after working for BC Ferries, lol.
Today was a good day and I liked the latest treasure in my advent
The very negative part of the day was finding out Jake’s plane is cancelled and he won’t be making it for Christmas. We are still going to have Emmy with us but I know she will be missing her Dad as much as he misses her. Of course it is all due to the weather event and that seems to be the timing Jake has for visits.
I am watching highway thru hell and Jamie Davis has his young kids out working with him. It is stirring all kinds of thoughts about my dad as my kid brother, Greg and I were often his helpers. At a young age we were taught not to question just to respond. As I watch the show I am reminded of the abject terror I often felt but followed through, I was not actually afraid of my Dad as much as I understood that this is what family does. I think I have accomplished, or experienced as much as I have in my life because it was instilled in me early, to just overcome and get it done. I don’t think I raised my son the same way. He is successful and I always knew he would be but I didn’t think it was because of me in any way. I do see though that he applied for a job that on paper he was no way qualified for but in the end is a huge success at. That is pushing the fear of rejection or failure aside to do what you want or need to accomplish. That is the trait passed down by my father. He, as I learned later in his life had many fears but as a true Scorpio acted as though he could do anything if he set his mind to it and his Aries daughter has done the same. It is good to have a respect, a response to those who want you to be fearless in spite of fear and succeed at all you truly want or need to do. Thanks Dad.
triumphgal 