01-01-26 Happy New Year
I was awoken by a phone call at 9:06 which was early considering I didn’t go to bed until after 2. It was the hospital calling to see if I could make my way there for my CT scan instead of at 10:15 pm. Out of a dead sleep and finished by 9:45. Stopped and got gas, picked up my puzzle table from the kids house, and came home to put away most of my Christmas decor.
It felt good to get a bunch of outside things done before coming in to do a few more chores and sort Lego, while watching the rest of Stranger Things. It was very well done.
It has been a stressful day as my cousin Jeanne is now in ICU struggling to breathe and I’m not sure that she’s going to be with us for long. In many ways, I wish that she would accept visitors so that I could go and sit with her and know that she is ready to go and give her permission to do so. I have been feeling strongly all day that everyone is probably telling her to hold on, that she’ll get over this flu and be fine. am I hard. I feel that it’s not the case and I would hope for her the same peaceful passing that my Jackie had just surrounded by her loves. Don’t get me wrong, I love her so very much and feel like she is just far far too young as she is only 10 years older than me but it is so hard to know she is suffering and missing out on so much

triumphgal 