07-09-26 what a day
I slept in two hour increments last night, so yeah, that was frustrating. I finally got up and jumped in the hot tub before getting on a pretty dress to head on with my day. I did take time to have breakfast raspberries from my bushes that are overflowing.
I went to the office and got a lot done before heading to Rotary lunch. It was really nice to sit beside Cindy Souchereau who is the director of golf at St Eugene golf club. She did a wonderful presentation about the 104th PGA tournament of champions coming here in August
After lunch, I headed to Mark Memorial to meet with Jenna to pick up Mom’s ashes. She is such a lovely human and offered me all sorts of perks that we don’t really need like a tent and chairs, etc. at the graveside. She asked me to send her pictures of mom‘s parents tombstones so that she could help me find a good match. I decided that I would take Mom to the Kimberley cemetery. I am very pragmatic about things and did not actually feel like mom was visiting her parents, but there was something symbolic in placing her urn on their graves for pictures.
From there, I headed out to Meadowbrook eight minutes away to see Barrie and confirm that we could use his yard for the gathering September 5. We had a really nice long visit about all the things that he has been going through as well. I am grateful to keep that relationship as I miss his wife my cousin Jeanne so much.
I stopped for a nice visit with Donna and Hogie and even got to taste a few of their huckleberries that they had picked
Back at the office, I got a bunch more work done and then I spent time making an event on Facebook for Mom’s gathering. All these little things are making it easier for me to get through this.
I asked Brett if he wanted to go play trivia and he said yes, but then I found out that there is a band there tonight and no trivia so said I was going to Fenwick for some food. He joined and we had one of the best conversations ever. We admitted that we have both become one of each others best friends, and we had the pinky swear that we wouldn’t hold back feels anymore from each other. It was very poignant and absolutely necessary. While we were talking, Monica reached out to me to see how I was doing and invited me over. I stopped there on the way home and spent an incredible evening with Galen and Monica talking about a lot of other things than just the immediate things that are going on in my life. I was able to let Monica know how important it was for me that she could tell my mom she had me in her hands and I was going to be OK. I believe that to be true as tonight was a perfect example of being able to share with friends, download debrief and be real.
I am going to get through this with both my robot and empath side working together.
For now, Mom’s ashes are in my office behind my monitors so I don’t see them constantly and Brett has offered to safely keep them in his office if it turns out to be too much for me. I suspect I will be fine just knowing I have that option.
triumphgal 