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Today was going along as usual, took the time to write out some postcards to the grandkids, mailed a cookie to a friend, dropped some off at at another family and returned to get a lot of work done.

I then made some dinner and settled down to watch a zoom webinar about Trains and Movies by my friend Gordon. Just a normal day, right?

Well, first I heard the terrible news that my son-in-law had to make a choice no child should have to, to protect his Mom. I was saddened by it all, and tried to support my daughter as she dealt with the horrors of dementia and its trauma to the family.

Second, I used my outer ring to download the day and was FaceTiming with my friend Diane when she mentioned needing masks for her and her daughter Zoe so they could go out. I had two that didn’t fit me properly so I offered to drop them off to which she offered a bottle of homemade wine. A fine trade indeed! I drove over and we stood and had a good 20 or so minute stoop visit.

I returned home to notice there were footprints on my doormat and threshold which was odd. But I had to pee so I rushed in and set my stuff down on the stove, and ran to the loo. When I came back out my spidey senses were tingling and I turned on the lights to notice dried mud footprints in the door and into the kitchen. At that point I freaked out and after getting no answer immediately I video called my daughter. Although I didn’t want to bother her, I did want to be sure she hadn’t been there and to be with me while I searched my house. She and Roger kept yelling WE HAVE BIG GUNS as I looked in any space big enough for a human. I made her look under the bed for me. Once I was sure I was alone and all doors were locked I reached out to my Facebook Hive to see what they thought and I was convinced to call the RCMP. I got through quickly on the non emergency line and in short order there was an officer at my door. They had first confirmed I was covid free but I can only hope he was as he is the first person in my house in 40 days… OKAY SECOND!! A friend mentioned I should sanitize as I don’t know what they touched and now I am worried as I didn’t think about the door handle and I know I have touched my face, sigh. I think I must have caught someone while I was backing in to my parking spot. It is all so weird but I feel confident that nothing is missing. It is however 12:38am and I am not ready to sleep yet. I know the RCMP have paroled as I have heard them go by and I know I am safe from things I can see but there is now an invisible potential intruder that I can not for this moment shake. 40 Fucking Days and Nights….. arghhhhh. Guess I better be super isolated for the next 14 just in case.

I should have taken a picture while he had his light shined and you could see a very clear outline of a foot. I had basically been wearing flip flops all day so they couldn’t pick that mess up if I tried…..

I had an email from a co-worker today about work and then he asked if I liked my ecard for my birthday which was over a week ago. I told him I didn’t get one and actually was a little sad that work hadn’t recognized it but, I am the social committee at the moment so…

It turns out we must have a very strict firewall as once he just sent me the link I was able to open it and Ta Da it was a Star Wars hugging card that was full of lovely messages from my co-workers and I was so happy to get it. It’s funny that my response to him was ‘You must know me well enough that I would have thanked you all, so of course I didn’t get it’ but as soon as I have this thought I realize I haven’t thanked my cousin Rosie for the lovely handcrafted card I received in the mail from her, where are my manners…

Wednesdays have really changed for me as I look forward now to 11am my time when the Los Texmaniacs Lunchbox occurs. I have them playing live on my iPad as I work and today even got a shoutout! I recommend if you are on FaceBook or Youtube, check them out! I want to donate to evey musician I know and love but, well, I’d be further in debt…

I snuck out for my break today to pick up a mask that the woman I volunteer for at the Cranbrook Heritage (Train) Museum made for me. She is sweet to be doing this. The same problem happened with it as with the one my other friend made for me… I am right out of the movies:

Stuart Mackenzie : Look at the size of that boy’s heed.

Tony Giardino : Shhh!

Stuart Mackenzie : I’m not kidding, it’s like an orange on a toothpick.

Tony Giardino : Shhh, you’re going to give the boy a complex.

Stuart Mackenzie : Well, that’s a huge noggin. That’s a virtual planetoid.

Tony Giardino : Shh!

Stuart Mackenzie : Has it’s own weather system.

Tony Giardino : Sh, sh, shh.

Stuart Mackenzie : HEAD! MOVE!

I shall have to extend the elastic a bit to accommodate or I defeat the purpose with all the shoving it back behind my ears. Love that it will be that easy though and for now I also have ones that tie on with shoe lace, very clever!

I feel a bit of pressure from work to put in more overtime as they are busy with personal tax returns but the deadline has been extended due to Covid-19 and I am, aside from the Partners, the one employee who works overtime every month, not just tax time so I am working hard at setting boundaries. I do think it even more necessary now that my desk is at home. There has to be a proper break in the schedule.

Tonight, I watched Survivor, made cookies and crocheted. Nothing Granny about that…..

Still feel like I am walking through mud but I got up and got at it. First thing this morning there were messages, one from near and one from afar, reaching out to make sure I am ok. It is hard to explain that I can not edit, nor redact the parts of the day that do not suit. I do not say everything for certain but this is my honest rambling and will be a good picture of how this time touched my mind and soul. And I got on the scale to have lost a little bit again which was quite the blessing as I had not completed my steps for 4 days. I have the last two though and it is helping.

Linda shared a lovely version of Bohemian Rhapsody that her circle put together in England and oh it made me Laugh Out Loud.. well at least chortle.

Maureen and her delightful grandson Malachi showed up early afternoon with a collection of masks for me. How grateful I am. And a friend in the neighbourhood followed me in his truck to drop off my motorcycle at the shop for a maintenance long overdue. I wanted to just keep riding!!! It will be good for my soul when I have it back and insured. Just have to plan well as there are no open bathrooms….

I had bought a wee cookie kit on Valentine’s day and decided to decorate them today. Nailed it! HAHAHAHAHA (I just wanted a treat or I really would have tried harder)

I need to make a plan for gardening, at least will mow and get ready this weekend, weather permitting…

See, one foot in front of the other, every day is different no matter how much the same.

4 days now with stress stomach and anxiety. 4 days of being on the edge of weepy and today outright crying. 4 days of not even attempting to get my steps in….. I wonder what the significance is. WHY? why now, why me, why not, why. I am going through the motions, I doubt many would find it in my tone or my actions. I am fulfilling my obligations and reaching out as well. But it is an act, these actions. I want to lay on my couch and eat junk food and sleep when I feel like it. I don’t want to whinge. I just need a hug. I have become a tad afraid that I am too afraid. How will I know it is ok again. I need to make a mask so I can go out. I need to go sit somewhere and people watch. Even if that means the mall parking lot watching the line up thru Tim Hortons, which I imagine to be constant.

I am still ok in that I am still observant of what is going on around me. Should I stop finding pleasure in the rain or in the sound of my Grandson’s voice then I shall worry.

I started on Season 2 of A Handmaid’s Tale and it really is a horror and yet in a way so much more than a cautionery tale. I watch it and am grateful for this life, even as it is now, it is not THAT. Clearly written by woman, every button is pushed, every unimaginable, that could never happen to me…

I walked tonight, I got my steps in, I ate three meals, only had one drink and I will feel better or hopefully less, tomorrow. And come May I will take my vacation time I had scheduled and putter about my house as I see fit not as is expected of me in the middle of this.

Sundays are interesting for me, they often are a little ‘floaty’. There were several periods in my life when Sunday was my most scheduled day, my God time en masse. Over time I have come to a place that does not involve a brick and mortar faith, and these pandemic days lend themselves to shopping for a faith based experience. Today that involved finishing season one of Handmaid’s Tale which in itself can fling you off your belief system, experiencing a Tupperware meeting a la Zoom, a cash based faith and a whole lot of thinking about friends and family who truly fill that God void in my life. It’s not that I am not a Christian, I just find as life goes along I find God in different places….

Today’s midday meal was a reminicent moment of my Mom making ‘open-faced’ omelettes with whatever was in the fridge. This one include avocado, nummy ham, tomatoes and cheddar as well as a sprinkle of Epicure Cole Slaw Seasoning. Yes I am getting crative with what I have and it was delicious!!

Most of the day was spent filing returns, and crocheting. How’s that for a juxtiposition..

When my brain is not otherwise involved, it defrags and part of that process is returning to yesterday.. some things keep me uplifted on a daily basis. Early March BC (Before Covid-19) my daughter Ashlée came to visit with my youngest Grandson, Sawyer and they left me a message on my bathroom mirror. I am so grateful as it uplifts me every day.

Yesterday was also the birthday of one of my dearest people on the planet. Mark is my platonic best friend whom I met when he served me drinks in the Great Bear Rainforest. He now lives a few hours and a ferry ride from me here in the Kootenays. It is ironic that a ferry/seabus ride separated us in the old days and does again. He is my person in a lot of ways. Our game together was Little Big Planet. He is my Sackboy and I his Sackgirl. He is the most competitive person I have ever met and honestly that says a lot from this Aries Girl. I love him, and miss him and wish I could have shared his great hug for both of our birthdays. For now, he sits by my computer.

Happy Sunday and stay safe and sane out there, my friends

I stayed up late last night so was really looking forward to sleeping in. I had had to peel my eyes open at 7 when my alarm went off for the previous two days. Imagine my horror when I sprang awake at 6:25!! I grabbed a coffee and a snack and settled on the couch to watch Cell. Now I love Stephen King books, have most of them, in fact but I have already been suffering from stress stomach the last couple days (cause unknown as of yet) and this movie was not my finest choice. It was amusing and creepy and had a great cast, I will give it that. But I may stay away from Zombie movies for the duration of being alone. The rain pounding down did not help or did help with atmosphere!

Next, I prepped three tax returns, sent out email for fundraising for our cancelled festival and wrote out a few postcards for friends. And then the fun part, no really… The kids kicked in and I gifted Mom an iPad for her birthday May 7th. It arrived and we spent time this afternoon setting it up via FaceTime. That was an exercise in patience but I am proud of me for just reminding her we had all the time in the world and working our way through passwork changes and setting up email and Facebook etc. She did good! And I remained pleasant which is probably easier these days when we hear how many elders are dropping dead. It is a constant reminder to cherish what and who we have. It will be so much easier for her to message and Facetime with the grand and great grandkids now.

After all that, I decided to have a quick plate of deluxe nachos and then settle in to crochet and watch all the rest of Picard and then start in on The Handmaids Tale. So, I got a lot of bits done and watched so many episodes that it is now 2 in the morning!!!! I really ought to get to bed before I get another second wind.

I tried hard to concentrate on work, I really did but the Tupperware party on Thursday Night was too much! I was so busy off and on getting it all sorted. I did have a lovely visit from a client who showed up with a Timmies coffee and a Honey Crueller! We sat about 10 feet apart out in the sun and had a great visit. Other than that, nothing much to report. I very much look forward to sleeping in!

Today is my beautiful middle child’s 33 birthday and I was thrilled to just yesterday have come across a bidwar item of three Original Star Trek characters. She is a fan so I bid and found out today I won. When I contacted the seller she had a huge collection and I chose 13 of them and sent money. I then sent Ashlée to go pick up her surprise and she was very happy and is in negotiations to get a few more. Simple things bring joy, just show you know the person and care about what makes them happy.

Me, I would love to follow throught on my newsletter notice and tomorrow pre-order a pair of the Dr. Bonnie Henry inspired Fluevogs. I have loved that brand for over 30 years and had to honestly step back from the sensationalism and realized that for 329 plus tax I could make my own donation directly to the Foodbank instead at an amount that would not tax my credit card. Tough choice, yes but working from home, no one will get to see them anyway and I do have 4 pair in my collection from over the years already. No need to be extravagant…

Last night I cooked a huge ham just so I could make the most delicious grilled ham and cheese for dinner tonight 🙂

Yesterday and today the outside noises raised my hackles. I don’t know why. I think there is definitely more traffic and it had been very quiet. More people must be milling about. Anyway, I am stuffed up and tired so I shall go get a short walk in before falling into bed. Night, all….

I feel as though I spouted from a navel gazing perspective the last two days. There was something that happened in Canada that is so far removed from our nation’s psyche that I couldn’t even speak to it. The mass shooting spree that occurred in Nova Scotia is so horrific to think about that I am not sure I can really process it. There is a part of me that can compartmentalize so well that even when I am moved to tears and mourn when these things happen in other countries it is just something that happens – out there. But this happened IN here, in a place in this country that is celebrated for family and music and fun and connection. My brain will not dwell too long on the fact that 23 people, 23 Canadians, at least 5 that are front line workers, 1 teenager, and all who have family and loved ones who will never be the same are gone. Left behind is a strip of a Province that will never feel completely safe again. I love our Prime Minister even more for insisting we never show the picture nor mention the name of the man who did this. And to have to deal with all of this without the healing power of togetherness, I feel much for all those on the far side of my country. I would send them love and prayers but I know nothing will ever truly take this away.

I have my own weird fallout from it as a few people I would consider friends have come out to me for the first time as conspiracy theorists and whom I consider the tinfoil hat people. Shocking revelations that their first response is don’t take more rights away. No more gun control. Some days I want to move to New Zealand….. for now I am activating the snooze for 30 days option and then will revisit whether I need that in my life at all.

I awoke to an email from the last client I billed last night to ask if that was seriously my rate. Seems I had not hit the shift key and decided he should pay 4200 for their tax returns. We had a good laugh and I am glad it was a friend of over 40 years. OMG I just did the math and that is a fact. I am blessed to still have good friends from that long ago.

Took a break during my day and went out to start my motorcycle for the first time since fall. I had been having battery problems when I put her away so I didn’t even leave her on a charger over the winter. I plugged in the charger overnight and today she fired up immediately. I spoke to a local bike shop about coming to get her and give her a tune-up, just hoping I can arrange a friend to bring her and save me $50. The shop is only a few blocks away so I could ride her there and walk home but I don’t even have a plate on her at the moment, only storage insurance.

I cooked a big ham and an apple crisp tonight. Didn’t even have any yet as I had other leftovers to get through but I am set for the rest of the week and will share with Ashlée tomorrow. Feels good to keep cooking for myself. So far I have only eaten takeout once and the last time I was at a friends for dinner was Friday March the 13th! I know that doesn’t seem like a big deal but I live alone and tend to work too much so this is a good habit for me. I also started a workout app today. We shall see how that goes, lol

Today has been busy and not unpleasant due to the people I have interacted with. It also has been a bit of a rebound from yesterday as I mostly put off thinking about the things that made me sad.

The only really black cloud on Sunday was receiving official notice that Vancouver Island MusicFest was cancelled for this year due to the pandemic. Although it was forshadowed I still found it nearly unbearable to email my crew and let them know before they read it on Facebook. When I made a decision to leave Bella Bella in 2016 I had two options in mind, Comox Valley (where the Fest and my friends are) or Cranbrook (where my kids and grands are). It was not an easy decision as I do not make friends easily. Acquaintances, no worries. Can chat up perfect strangers with aplomb, but good for the soul connections are harder to come by especially as the years go by. I made those connections on Vancouver Island and rely heavily on keeping them during Festival time and possibly at other times of year. At the time I had 4 grandsons all under 10 and I decided that if I didn’t come build relationship with them at this age it may not be there in the future. I didn’t realize at the time though how seldom I would get to return to visit my friends. It is now a planned destination rather than a happy stop along the way to elsewhere which used to happen often. Drive-by huggings were my specialty. I had a trip planned to go see them and just spend some good visiting time in May and then return again in July for the Fest. First the May trip was ruled out and now the July. I try not to dwell on when I may see them again, just lock it in, that I will.

Today was a constant reminder, drawing eye welling, as the reply email from my lovely, dedicated, wonderful crew came in. So far so many are thankful for opportunity to come back next year and make it happen. I only pray we do.

I have a tattoo on my left forearm that is a drawing my father used to put on all cards and letters. I had it done on the 5th anniversary of his plane crash. A few years later my daughter had a homestay student named Gabriel from Brazil and his mother would use the term Saudades on his Facebook. I looked it up and instantly knew that feeling and he came with me to have it added under the drawing which signified the loss of my Mother and sister and Father. These days the feeling is close to my heart. There is such an unsettled feeling in my soul about everything in this life and just this evening I realized that it was:

Saudade (English: /ˌsaʊˈdɑːdə/,^[1] European Portuguese: [sɐwˈðaðɨ], Brazilian Portuguese: [sawˈdadi] or [sawˈdadʒi], Galician: [sawˈðaðɪ]; plural saudades)^[2] is a deep emotional state of nostalgic or profound melancholic longing for an absent something or someone that one cares for and/or loves while simultaneously having positive emotions towards the future. Moreover, it often carries a repressed knowledge that the object of longing might never be had again. It is the recollection of feelings, experiences, places, or events that once brought excitement, pleasure, and well-being, which now trigger the senses and make one experience the pain of separation from those joyous sensations. However it acknowledges that to long for the past would detract from the excitement you feel towards the future. Saudade describes both happy and sad at the same time, which is most closely translated to the English saying ‘bitter sweet’.

I usually make resolutions on my birthday instead of New Years but this year I did not until this moment when I declare that I resolve to be kind to me and wait until the feeling passes.

Until then I shall drink tea made in a unicorn from a mug made by my daughters when they were young and believe that It is Well with my soul.

Sorry, I am going to start with reminiscing.. a year ago on my birthday it was Good Friday and I flew in to Victoria to see my best friend, Jackie, in Intensive Care as she had had a brain aneurysm and stroked out. She was so excited to see me and laughed out loud for the first time when I told her it was my birthday and I guess she was the present. It was a touching moment and defines our new norm.

Today I am in isolation during a pandemic. I have always been a 5 year old when it comes to birthdays. I blame my Mom as she made dream parties, complete with games and coins in the cake. So, two sucky years in a row and yet each is memorable and special in it’s own way.

I have been overwhelmed with love today, in person from a distance, online, on the phone, by text and messages. The sun came out and I got outside to put away the winter and bring out some of Spring. I ate lamb nachos, a cupcake and some chocolate, drank a moscow mule while I read a book in the sun, and red wine while I watched the shows on my PVR. The One World music special was lovely and heartwarming ( and included Jimmy Fallon)

I saw all my grandkids in the yard, heard the voices of friends and family (some even sang!) and made the best of it. My darling in The UK even wrote and recited a poem. The Saga of our friendship moved us both to tears, her in the telling and I in the watching and listening.

I am extraordinarily blessed. I don’t know why and I can’t stop to wonder as that messes up my brain. I shall just accept the love and know that when days are dark someone can remind me to look back to days like today when there is so much good and comfort and memories and kindness and love out there that one cannot doubt their value and place on this planet. Thank you all and I wish the same for you.

And the above is the video I made for my dear cousin Jamie who shares this day with me although 7 years younger. It is his 50th today and I think my day was made when he left a message that referred to me as his favourite cousin even after I sang!!!

Today started with a long walk to the couch and catching up on my programs as my Nana would say. Her were daytime soaps and mine are nighttime but pretty much the same. I am a big fan of all the Chicago’s and spinoffs as well as the Greys and spinoff. Also finally caught up on Survivor and after watching every single season through the years I really cried when the family visits happened. There was some pretty raw emotion there and, well, I have lasted longer on the Edge of Extinction than most of them!

I filed a bunch of personal taxes for my own clients today. It’s still hard to tell someone they owe even if it is logical that they do and if the government has extended the payment due date by 4 months. I do get to catch up with people though which is lovely.

Ashlée came by so I gave her her birthday present which she promptly opened lol. I knitted her a Jughead style toque (beanie) with a pony tail or bun hole. When Riverdale moved to filming in BC I was commissioned to design and knit a toque for the Jughead Character. I did get paid well, got to go to the depths of the lot to the costume department and actually saw a couple of the actors. Not Luke Perry unfortunately as he was still alive then but not around. Anyway, my little movie fun moment. Ashley always loved that toque so I made her a stylized one.

Started an Afghan as I can use up scraps. It’s from a pattern cousin Bea sent me when I admired the one she made when I Visited her in the UK. I started on the first section and it just seemed unwieldy so I reviewed all the instructions to learn that we use different terms on this side of the puddle. The patterns double crochet is my single etc. Now this can have quite the effect on a pattern! Got it sorted and am motoring on. I watched most of the movie Young Victoria while walking and waiting for midnight so I could make a video and send to my dear friend Mary Lynn on Salt Spring Island. I guess I’ll share it as I think I’m so clever, haha haha

First thing I noted was that it is supposed to snow tomorrow… I was challenged by a client to put away my snowblower this weekend. She should not have called a shutout.

It was a decent day, got a lot of small fires put out. Had some funny moments and some, gee I wish this day was over…. moments. So when I went to my mailbox to gather the weeks worth it made me smile to have a birthday present from my cousin Debbi. I am not going to open it until Sunday. I like looking at it sitting there full of promise.

There was also a coupon for Dominos so I reated myself to a curbside pickup of enough ot last the weekend. They really had a great set up except the setting it on my hood….

Next was a quick stop at the very regulated liquorstore. I am also good for that as I am actually drinking less than usual as well. Less screen time, less weight and less drinking. I am flattening my own curve.

After last night I am now a Tupperware consultant. I could live to regret that as there was a no pressure promise but it has already eaten up a bunch of time today. Hit me up if you are feeling the need to organize your kitchen!

One of the most fun things today was creating a video for my cousin who turns 50 on Sunday. He and I share a birthday. I made a bit of a spoof on 50 ways to leave your lover. After he sees it I will share it.

Have a good weekend!

I feel much better today but now have basically spent 14 hours in the same chair and must get off this computer. You see, that is the problem. I spend all day in a directors chair at my dining room table in front of two screens and my iPad. And then in the evening when I want to chat with friends and family and play games and write, I have already had my share of screen time and that may be the biggest problem for me with this whole isolation. I think that is why Wednesdays are looking to be the most sad for me. I am worn thin at that point. For some reason it really is a tough hump for me to get over. I had a client call today and when I said I was in week 4 of isolation alone, he was sorry as he knew I was a social bug, like him. I volunteer for a few organizations and it is so fulfilling, so mind clearing and expanding that I feel a need to do it. I know it is good for them but it is very good for me and I still haven’t quite found the thing to replace it. Today is frustrating as I also was busy all evening on this machine and now it is 10:24 pm and I have managed to get in only 1064 steps. I am going to allow myself to be ok with that. I have been doing really well. I treated myself to some Tupperware tonight which supports a friend in her small business and that feels good. So what this blog really is, is a marker of how things are going, what the patterns are, where shifts need to be made. I had a lovely concerned text from a friend today a bit concerned about the brevity of my recent posts and was I ok. I wasn’t and I am grateful she noticed and reached out. It made me work at turning it around and I was happier by days end. Cool thing about the Online Tupperware party tonight was there was a large group of ladies from Radville, Saskatchewan where my Grandad Ernie Bellavance grew up and his parents are buried. It was neat to hear of the wee town of 860 in southern Saskatchewan.

https://www.findagrave.com/memorial/117335922/marie-bellavance

3.5 weeks working from home and living alone and feeling under the weather and out of wine and whiskey. Tired and more tired. Finished my stormtrooper, off to walk and sleep. Good night.

Monday… got up, worked.. walked… FaceTimed with Jackie.. watched Three Billboards Outside Ebbing, Missouri which was powerful and started making a stormtrooper until I was so tired I went straight to bed and forgot to do this…. Tuesday to follow….

Tuesday… weigh in day, lost weight. I am now where I was 6 months ago. Small increments but still going down. I started having lung issues 6 months ago and mostly gave up on walking and good habits. It has taken 3 weeks but I am sure that this habit of being productive while watching TV, either walking or crafting is a good one. Both things are very good for my mental health. My lungs were bad today and my throat feels sore but I think I may need to drink more water and be sure I stop for lunch which I have failed to do for two days in a row. I watched Darkest Hour tonight, great movie!!

Just once I would love to hear the government officials thank this worker bee. We bookkeepers are feeling the pain of watching what our clients are going through, helping them to run final payroll and lay off their friends and supporters. We are struggling to keep up with the information and relay it correctly. Taking on the stress and offering our support to fill out the forms, advising to pay if you can as you know you will have to in the end. Yes the government should thank me, if it weren’t for them I wouldn’t have a job, but if it weren’t for me they wouldn’t have the funds to be so generous in these complicated times.

I thought the most exciting thing in this day I had to share was that I am really enjoying working my way, day by day, through my concert t-shirts. Each day is filled with a memory. Today was of Folkwest where I shared an event with some of the most wonderful people I have had the pleasure of knowing and volunteering with. Turns out I had lots of thoughts….

Awoke thinking again about my drive into town and how much life right now reminds me of when I lived in Bella Bella. I rarely drove anywhere, rarely ate out and life was simple with entertainment primarily in your own home. As I was out driving I felt like I was learning how to be observant all over again.

First thing I did was my Easter egg hunt which went rather well. Actually had to hunt lol

Spent time messaging friends and FaceTime with Jackie was lovely. It was Easter last year that I rushed to ICU in Victoria to be with her after her brain aneurysm. No speech yet but decent communication. I miss her though. And I worry about her health and safety in an extended care home in Vancouver.

Also FaceTime was spent with Emmy and then my Mom. Taught Mom how so she could spend more time with Emmy too. Moms iPad is supposed to arrive first week of May and I am sure that will make a world of difference.

I chose my Matthew Good t-shirt with purpose. It has a good message and I am OK

I got my steps in watching Ballad of Buster Scruggs which I loved. Those Coens!

After that I settled on the couch with a new crochet project. I watched a fascinating show about Resignation Syndrome called Life Overtakes Me It is quite horrifying to see what is happening to these children in Sweden.