06-30-26 A complicated day
Again it is a blur. I was gray when Bryan and Lynne arrived so that I could race home, shower and brush my teeth and head down to ensure safety barricades were in place for the Spirit of the Rockies parade that Rotary assists JCI with.
It was the best thing for me as I was able to detach from my current horrors, engage and interact with so many there for the fun.
The happiest moment in a long time was the CPKC train! I was grinning like a child at Christmas as it came by for the first time in our parade
After the parade a woman came up and asked if I lost my keys. Mine were still attached to my belt loop but as it happens I had lost my car fob. She was such a blessing to have seen where I was regularly standing and search me out.
After the parade I ran into my friend Sven who was heading into F&B and voted me to join. I did need a break so I popped in for a good visit with a number of awesome younger people in my life. My friend was back bartending after his knee surgery and upon learning about my Mom bought my drink.
It was finally time to head back but I had a level of dread. Mom’s energy was a lot lower today. She had freaked me out twice in the night hollering for me that she was dying. It happens that she thinks she slept well all night so I am letting her have that.
Elsie came to visit and that was good. Not long after Mom asked me to call Morleen as she wanted to say goodbye. This was the first time that I saw she accepted what was happening. It was very poignant.
The blessing of our day was Nurse Dan. He is a colon cancer patient in remission. He shared his story and fully advocated for Mom in the best way. He even came and wrapped my ginger that suffered the indignity of a nail rip.
Ashlée arrived from Calgary
Rae took me home to change, and we stopped for Crown.
Earlier I was wandering the hall to make a post to our family chat and inadvertently wandered into the other palliative room while m we share a lounge with. I was crying and that whole damn family had been caring for me since. They all came down from Edmonton for their grandmother and I can say they are all incredible humans. There have been many hugs shared.
I am sure there are so many more details of the day but for now… I have our night nurses promise to wake me should she find on her hourly check in, that Mom is near or gone. I did promise that I wouldn’t leave her.
If I don’t know you and you are following along on this insane journey, thank you. If I do know you and you are still with me here, God bless and I love you xo
triumphgal 